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[Anonymous]

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Anonymous wrote:I have been in an affair for 3 years. Tried to end it once, but it started up again. I just can't end it and the dual life is starting to kill me. DH has no idea.

I thought my xh didn't know. He later told me he knew 2 yrs into my affair. I have a very high drive and I said no thanks for the first time in 8 yrs. I think aps wife always knew. Although he thought she didnt. Ap is a horrible liar. I tried to end it after year 3. We stayed away for a few months and it didn't work. I'm divorced and he's going through one now. Our relationship is much less stressful now that we don't have to sneak around.
My dual life started because I had begged my then husband to pay attention to me, and get off the effing Xbox. I'd walk around naked and he'd still play the xbox.
He'd ignore me all day and have sex with me while I slept.
Ugh

Wait, what?

Yeah. I didn't find out until later. He did it often. He thoughit was funny. I'd tell " but I was asleep", and he'd say " your p**** wasnt" and then laugh. Not a cruel laugh, but one where he was so effing pleased with himself

Sounds like ol' Elvis was working with a little pinky if you managed to stay sleep and not know.

It was like a aa battery.

That
Is
Hilarious

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:I'm so skinny postpartum because I abuse drugs. At least I don't lie outright and pretend I work out or eat well. I just say, "I haven't had an appetite since the baby was born" which is true.

Nice. What's your drug/s of choice?

Small doses of opiates + benzos + nicotine (vape in private). I make sure my DH, a grandparent, or a babysitter is "on duty" when I dose. I'm not a monster, just a person trying to get through day by day. It started because I had leftover opiates from my postpartum pain when the PPD kicked in. Instead of sobbing every evening like clockwork, I took a pill and actually enjoyed the evening grind - loving on my baby, tidying the house, prepping bottles, engaging with DH, dealing better with night wakings. I'm not under any illusions that I'm not headed for rehab or a breakdown. But for now, I'm working FT and being the best mom I can be. And I have to force myself to eat, yes. Please don't assume I'm glorifying this. I'm a train wreck inside.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:I have been in an affair for 3 years. Tried to end it once, but it started up again. I just can't end it and the dual life is starting to kill me. DH has no idea.

I thought my xh didn't know. He later told me he knew 2 yrs into my affair. I have a very high drive and I said no thanks for the first time in 8 yrs. I think aps wife always knew. Although he thought she didnt. Ap is a horrible liar. I tried to end it after year 3. We stayed away for a few months and it didn't work. I'm divorced and he's going through one now. Our relationship is much less stressful now that we don't have to sneak around.
My dual life started because I had begged my then husband to pay attention to me, and get off the effing Xbox. I'd walk around naked and he'd still play the xbox.
He'd ignore me all day and have sex with me while I slept.
Ugh

Wait, what?

Yeah. I didn't find out until later. He did it often. He thoughit was funny. I'd tell " but I was asleep", and he'd say " your p**** wasnt" and then laugh. Not a cruel laugh, but one where he was so effing pleased with himself

That's sexual abuse. You were not consenting and didn't know. I've been there. It's very violating. XH was charged with numerous counts of sexual assault. I didn't think the police would care. They do.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:I have been in an affair for 3 years. Tried to end it once, but it started up again. I just can't end it and the dual life is starting to kill me. DH has no idea.

I thought my xh didn't know. He later told me he knew 2 yrs into my affair. I have a very high drive and I said no thanks for the first time in 8 yrs. I think aps wife always knew. Although he thought she didnt. Ap is a horrible liar. I tried to end it after year 3. We stayed away for a few months and it didn't work. I'm divorced and he's going through one now. Our relationship is much less stressful now that we don't have to sneak around.
My dual life started because I had begged my then husband to pay attention to me, and get off the effing Xbox. I'd walk around naked and he'd still play the xbox.
He'd ignore me all day and have sex with me while I slept.
Ugh

Wait, what?

Yeah. I didn't find out until later. He did it often. He thoughit was funny. I'd tell " but I was asleep", and he'd say " your p**** wasnt" and then laugh. Not a cruel laugh, but one where he was so effing pleased with himself

I think he was FOS and you weren't too bright to have believed him.

[Anonymous]

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Anonymous wrote:So I kind of want to go out for a drink with the 51 year old with a great sense of humor and a phd. I'm single, so no flaming!

My ears are burning.

Post with a username and I'll pm you

I'm 44, have a pretty good sense of humor myself, and am considered attractive.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:I have been in an affair for 3 years. Tried to end it once, but it started up again. I just can't end it and the dual life is starting to kill me. DH has no idea.

I thought my xh didn't know. He later told me he knew 2 yrs into my affair. I have a very high drive and I said no thanks for the first time in 8 yrs. I think aps wife always knew. Although he thought she didnt. Ap is a horrible liar. I tried to end it after year 3. We stayed away for a few months and it didn't work. I'm divorced and he's going through one now. Our relationship is much less stressful now that we don't have to sneak around.
My dual life started because I had begged my then husband to pay attention to me, and get off the effing Xbox. I'd walk around naked and he'd still play the xbox.
He'd ignore me all day and have sex with me while I slept.
Ugh

Wait, what?

Yeah. I didn't find out until later. He did it often. He thoughit was funny. I'd tell " but I was asleep", and he'd say " your p**** wasnt" and then laugh. Not a cruel laugh, but one where he was so effing pleased with himself

That's sexual abuse. You were not consenting and didn't know. I've been there. It's very violating. XH was charged with numerous counts of sexual assault. I didn't think the police would care. They do.

Not disputing any of this but just out of curiosity how could you prove it?

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:I'm so skinny postpartum because I abuse drugs. At least I don't lie outright and pretend I work out or eat well. I just say, "I haven't had an appetite since the baby was born" which is true.

Nice. What's your drug/s of choice?

Small doses of opiates + benzos + nicotine (vape in private). I make sure my DH, a grandparent, or a babysitter is "on duty" when I dose. I'm not a monster, just a person trying to get through day by day. It started because I had leftover opiates from my postpartum pain when the PPD kicked in. Instead of sobbing every evening like clockwork, I took a pill and actually enjoyed the evening grind - loving on my baby, tidying the house, prepping bottles, engaging with DH, dealing better with night wakings. I'm not under any illusions that I'm not headed for rehab or a breakdown. But for now, I'm working FT and being the best mom I can be. And I have to force myself to eat, yes. Please don't assume I'm glorifying this. I'm a train wreck inside.

Please get some counseling or other type of help asap. The longer it goes, the more difficult it will be to stop.

[Anonymous]

Man in his 50's. Want to leave my marriage but would feel horribly guilty. Also, nobody in my family has divorced so to some degree I would feel like I failed. And at some level wonder if there would be anyone out there for me. Shudder at playing the whole online dating game.

[Anonymous]

Guy in 50s - why do you want to leave your marriage?

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:Guy in 50s - why do you want to leave your marriage?

- she makes her family a priority over me (will never leave the region where they live)
- has no plans for the future except to retire and sit around
- used to be curious about the world, now never reads anything
- has no interest in any of my dreams or ideas (still want to work in my 60s at my own business)
- has no ability to understand anyone's thinking except her own

Translation: alone in the marriage and often think about what life would be like with some of the 50ish women I meet from time to time.

[Anonymous]

I want to end it all as I am 32, unmarried, single and no kids. I feel old, past it and a failure

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:I want to end it all as I am 32, unmarried, single and no kids. I feel old, past it and a failure

Believe you have posted before. You are not a failure. Just because you are not dating someone does not make you that. Does being married make someone successful? Of course not. Please find someone to talk to. Local universities often have programs that are free if money is a concern. You are valuable! You are alive! You have an impact on others.

[Anonymous]

I am seen as a sad spinster by society. Why carry on?

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:I am seen as a sad spinster by society. Why carry on?

Because life is not predictable. You could find love tomorrow.

[Anonymous]

Until then I am a sad spinster though. Lets not sugarcoat it