I so sympathize with this. When my DS was young, he struggled with a chronic illness that waxed and waned. When it flared, everything felt so bleak. When he was better, everything seemed brighter, but I was always waiting for the bad times to return. Everything felt so fragile. *I* felt so fragile. I hope things look up for your DD very soon-- and stay up long enough for you to put the bad times out of your mind for a while. |
same except I have people=kids/hubby but feel on a deeper level totally alone |
Thank you! Yes I tried the CROS, didn’t work for me, actually got a cochlear implant which is helpful but I thought it would work with my good ear. To now face full deafness and that be it? Just hard to stomach. But thank you that was very kind! |
Then go for it! Parenting is hard even in strong intact families. Be there for each other, show kindness and love to each other, the dc, the mom. That’s all you can do. |
I was promoted into a leadership role in a company that is circling the toilet. I knew it was bad, but not this bad. There are no good solutions. I am doing my best but it’s looking more and more likely that the ship is going down on my watch. I’ve worked here 20+ years, feel tremendous responsibility for the people on my team, and am heavily invested in our mission, which makes it even harder. |
I have huge fibroids that are growing and I’m only 45 so they won’t be shrinking anytime soon. But I don’t want to get cut open and I don’t want to lose my uterus. Otoh I’m tired of looking and feeling so bloated (pregnant) and tired. I constantly worry what is the best choice. |
They call this the Glass Cliff. Happens frequently to women and minorities. Set up to fail. Burns my soul. |
Same! It is difficult. |
Good vibes sent your way!!!!!! |
Please reach out to someone. The suicide hotline is 988. |
I had a rough childhood and now, a mom in my thirties, am waking up to all the insidious ways the abuse, abandonment and neglect I experienced has impacted my relationships and self worth. My marriage has been a struggle for some time. My husband’s emotional reactivity, critical nature and financial issues worsened with COVID, until I hit a wall and I left him last year. After some time apart we decided to keep working on our marriage and while there has been improvement, it’s still so hard.
I have been in survival mode since the separation. Therapy, medication and self care help, but I feel this inside me at a cellular level. One senior leader in my company has been a strong advocate for me during this time. I’ve felt a connection to him since we met, though he is much older and from a different part of the world. The practical support and kindness that he has shown me and rallied from others during this time has had such an impact. It also surfaces grief that other people in my life have not shown up for me in the same way. I feel so much love and appreciation for him, and I wish I could have met him, or someone like him, under different circumstances. He is ostensibly happily married but I feel that he cares deeply, maybe romantically, for me too. Thankfully we do not spend much time in person together, because when we do I feel something between us and I worry others notice. I actively try to be as warm and friendly with others and keep my distance from him so it’s less noticeable. I know we cannot be together, but I fantasize about being intimate with him daily. This has been going on some time. He is ostensibly happily married with a beautiful family. Breaching our professional relationship would blow up both our lives. I hope these feelings will pass into something less intense soon. |
Have you been to a doctor? There are laser treatments these days (forgetting the name) that will shrink the fibroids. No need for open surgery. |
I have pretty bad social anxiety and am working through it with a therapist. But it’s hard - I don’t have any friends to hang out with and every time I meet other moms I feel so out of. It breaks my heart to see they my kids also have anxiety. I don’t want them to live the way I did.
I work easily 50-60 hours a week and am so tired. I realize work is taking up too much of my time and identity. I desperately want to change this but don’t know how. My mom passed away when I was young and have dealt with a lifetime of consequences - emotional neglect by father who I suspect is on the spectrum and depression (now mild, used to be severe during teen years and well into 20s). I live in fear that I may not live long. My mom passed away when she was 36. I have a very distant relationship with my family of origin who lives in a different continent. We speak maybe couple times per year on the phone. Father had little interest in my kids. Brother is married but still immature. What I would give to have a mom I can call everyday and tell her everything. |
Immediately - I am staying in a hotel because when I woke my husband up to ask him to out on a snore strip (I have been woken up by his snoring and asked him to get some for the past 2 nights before this) he stormed out of the room, broke a glass in the living room, blamed me for the broken glass, called me an ***hole. We have no spare room so I went to a hotel.
So… that’s my current battle. And obv just the tip of the iceberg |
That is tough. Anxiety appears to have some genetic components to it according to psychiatrists so don’t blame yourself. How old are you kids? Do you have to work that many hours? That’s a lot to handle. It’s difficult to meet other mothers because you’re always working. I only worked part time so I met some at home and part time mothers too. I never got to know the full time working moms. Again, this isn’t your fault. What does family of origin mean? |