Confessions

[Anonymous]

I have frequent feelings of hatred and contempt for my husband.

[Anonymous]

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Anonymous wrote:I wish my mother would just drop dead.

Mine just did, 4 weeks before Thanksgiving.
We had conflicts, too, but my heart is broken. My 4 mo old will never know her.

I hope you find peace before she passes away.

I am very sorry for your loss. It sounds like in spite of the rough spots, you and your mother had a special bond and you have some good memories of your time together. As the pain eases, these positives will outweigh the conflicts, and you will be able to share meaningful stories with your child, and hopefully draw upon whatever positive lessons she provided. My beloved grandmother died when my daughter was 8 months old. I was absolutely heartbroken, but now I see my daughter exhibiting the best of that great woman, and it makes me happy.

For some of us, our mothers represent only pain. I know that when mine dies, there will be no heartbreak. I cannot remember a moment in my life with her where her good qualities (smart, talented, attractive) outweighed the bad (cruel, self-absorbed, narrow-minded, bigoted, an OCD control freak). People like me do mourn. We mourn not getting the chance to love a mother as you loved yours. We mourn when we see "nice grandmas" giving time to their grandchildren without attaching guilt strings for the tired parents. We mourn the childhoods that they took from us. Our mourning precedes death. My goal in life is to spare my children that feeling.

Again, my condolences to you and your family.

Yes, this describes my relationship with my mother as well. My mother has dementia and I handle all of her affairs (financial, medical, buying clothes, filling prescriptions, etc.), which is very painful for me because every time I take care of something else she needs, it is a reminder of what she *didn't* do for me.

I wish my mother would hurry up and die so that I could be free of thinking about her, forevermore. I often wish she weren't so well-taken care of so that she'd die earlier.

THIS IS SUCH AN ABSURD THAT EVEN HURTS ME TO THINK!

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:I wish my mother would just drop dead.

Mine just did, 4 weeks before Thanksgiving.
We had conflicts, too, but my heart is broken. My 4 mo old will never know her.

I hope you find peace before she passes away.

I am very sorry for your loss. It sounds like in spite of the rough spots, you and your mother had a special bond and you have some good memories of your time together. As the pain eases, these positives will outweigh the conflicts, and you will be able to share meaningful stories with your child, and hopefully draw upon whatever positive lessons she provided. My beloved grandmother died when my daughter was 8 months old. I was absolutely heartbroken, but now I see my daughter exhibiting the best of that great woman, and it makes me happy.

For some of us, our mothers represent only pain. I know that when mine dies, there will be no heartbreak. I cannot remember a moment in my life with her where her good qualities (smart, talented, attractive) outweighed the bad (cruel, self-absorbed, narrow-minded, bigoted, an OCD control freak). People like me do mourn. We mourn not getting the chance to love a mother as you loved yours. We mourn when we see "nice grandmas" giving time to their grandchildren without attaching guilt strings for the tired parents. We mourn the childhoods that they took from us. Our mourning precedes death. My goal in life is to spare my children that feeling.

Again, my condolences to you and your family.

Yes, this describes my relationship with my mother as well. My mother has dementia and I handle all of her affairs (financial, medical, buying clothes, filling prescriptions, etc.), which is very painful for me because every time I take care of something else she needs, it is a reminder of what she *didn't* do for me.

I wish my mother would hurry up and die so that I could be free of thinking about her, forevermore. I often wish she weren't so well-taken care of so that she'd die earlier.

THIS IS SUCH AN ABSURD THAT EVEN HURTS ME TO THINK!

I don't understand this comment. What is "absurd"?

[Anonymous]

I'm coming to the realization that my extended family won't ever be the supportive kind people I've been expecting them to be, and I'm debating not going to the "family" Christmas dinner this year. And if not this year, probably not the one after that and so on. Bye bye.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:I confess my best friend and I got drunk this weekend and had sex.

I confess that this just made me quite excited. Would love to hear more

[Anonymous]

I confess that I LOVE to pop zits. LOVE LOVE LOVE. Someone once asked if it was the "ejaculatory" nature of it, but it's not. I'll pop a zit on anyone if they'll let me. Not that I've offered many people. Mainly very serious SOs like my husband.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:I confess my best friend and I got drunk this weekend and had sex.

I confess that this just made me quite excited. Would love to hear more

Well, we had a kid-free evening and decided to hang out... So she bought some wine and lotsa wine later we started... caressing each other.

[Anonymous]

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Anonymous wrote:I still miss "the one who got away." Often.

Me too. And I always dream about him too - I'm not kidding. I've thought about seeking counseling for this - I feel so guilty about it. I rarely dream about my husband, but the one who got away pops up in my dreams very regularly. I am still in touch with him via Facebook, and now his girlfriend (whose pics are on his FB page) pops into my dreams to - as if we are all hanging out together or something. I must be losing it.

OMG, me too! Its Facebook! I stopped looking at his facebook and the dreams have almost totally stopped. Trust me, you feel a lot better in the morning when you don't wake up going "hmmm....that was weird."

[Anonymous]

I have a frosting addiction. In secret, I have purchased large cakes just to eat off the frosting.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:I have frequent feelings of hatred and contempt for my husband.

Me too, and I've never even met him.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU. You hit the mail on the head. I often wonder if there should be a "motherless daughters" group or an "adopt a grandparent" group. People who have family involved have truly NO idea how much easier their life is!

I too am a motherless daughter. This weekend (Thanksgiving) I was there with my DD visiting my mother and she said and I quote " Why haven't you lost all that baby weight yet, by time you were two months old I was back in my old clothes" and I just had to reply with a snarky " well I'm not a 16 year old drug addict" So white trash, but I couldn't let her get away with calling me fat yet again. My mother's a bitch, too bad she's only 42 she'll be around for a long time.

[Anonymous]

Another motherless daughter here. I have been taking care of her in one fashion or another since I was 12, which is about when I surpassed her in maturity. I have mostly made my peace with the situation, but somehow reading all these posts has got me retapping the anger. I guess it never completely goes away.

Confession 2: I get completely turned on by gay porn (male on male). Could be because my high school sweetie turned out to be bi, or could be that the guys in these flicks tend to be pretty hot...and my dear DH not so much, anymore.

I love this thread, btw. Read it whenever it resurfaces but have never posted before!

[Anonymous]

I am addicted to masturbation, I do it almost every night. BTW I am a single widowed mom of an almost one year old. Sometimes I watch girl on girl porn to get off, I like that they both seemed pleased.

[Anonymous]

I am secretly terrified that my DS will develop the speech patterns of the underprivileged black children that he encounters at the playground and in school.

[Anonymous]

WOW.