30 year old DH blowing up his life

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:Op here. It has now been 3 months and my DH behavior has completely deteriorated. He refuses to come home and stays out all day every day until 4 am or sleeps overnight. He says he is “sleeping at the office” but the gps tracker on his phone shows that he is out at bars and restaurants and then winds up at random addresses and hotels. I have spied multiple hookup apps on his phone and multiple random numbers that belong to random local women and even an escort service.

He cannot bear to be around me and screams and yells at me saying he hates me and I need to go away. When I tried to confront him
About his hookup app he screamed at me and threatened to kick me out and chased me around the apartment almost hitting me. He harbors so much anger and resentment towards me. He is drinking every night all night. He sleeps in until 2 pm and goes into work at 3 pm. He tells everyone he is depressed because of his crazy wife that won’t stop screaming at him and falsely accusing him of cheating.

He has suddenly withdrawn all contact and affection from me. He acts so distant and cold and makes me feel like a worm.

I feel like I am in a fog. Im still around as I am not employed, and am waiting to gain financial stability. How will I survive this?

Get out! Go home to your parents, your sister, your aunt, whoever you can. Get a job and pay to rent a room in the house. Seriously, get out now!

[Anonymous]

OP, any luck reaching your DH's prescribing doctor? Also I would consider moving in with family while still trying to help DH.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:Op here. It has now been 3 months and my DH behavior has completely deteriorated. He refuses to come home and stays out all day every day until 4 am or sleeps overnight. He says he is “sleeping at the office” but the gps tracker on his phone shows that he is out at bars and restaurants and then winds up at random addresses and hotels. I have spied multiple hookup apps on his phone and multiple random numbers that belong to random local women and even an escort service.

He cannot bear to be around me and screams and yells at me saying he hates me and I need to go away. When I tried to confront him
About his hookup app he screamed at me and threatened to kick me out and chased me around the apartment almost hitting me. He harbors so much anger and resentment towards me. He is drinking every night all night. He sleeps in until 2 pm and goes into work at 3 pm. He tells everyone he is depressed because of his crazy wife that won’t stop screaming at him and falsely accusing him of cheating.

He has suddenly withdrawn all contact and affection from me. He acts so distant and cold and makes me feel like a worm.

I feel like I am in a fog. Im still around as I am not employed, and am waiting to gain financial stability. How will I survive this?

OP, I gave you advice at 08/05 13:16. I have been through what you are going through right now. Your DH is experiencing mania triggered by SSRI. All the signs are there -- increased irritability, staying up late at night and not sleeping, hypersexuality (the hookers and randoms), drinking, not going to work until 3 pm, etc. The drinking is an attempt to self-medicate to counter the hypomania in order to be able to sleep.

For the sake of your husband, please write a fax to the Doctor who is prescribing his SSRIs and describe factually all the behavior you are seeing with examples, and ask for the Dr. to stop or taper off the SSRI. State that you are concerned that his behavior is a harm to self or others -- that he may lose his job and has come close to hitting you. Include your contact information and state that you are willing to come in to a joint appointment. I would actually state that you are concerned and would like the doctor to consider whether your DH is experiencing SSRI-induced hypomania and ask the doctor to consider whether a mood stabilizer should be either switched out for the SSRI or used to augment the SSRI. Suggestion such a specific diagnosis can be a bit risky -- on the one hand, doctors hate having their medical judgment questioned, especially by a woman. On the other hand, you (and your DH) have nothing to lose; if he stays on the current course, he will lose his marriage, job, etc. The doctor may or may not contact you; it depends on their view of their responsibilities under HIPAA vs. their medical responsibilities to the patient. You can't do anything to control that.

The next thing you need to do is lock down financials. I know you have said that you are not financially stable. Do you have any $$ held jointly? You have to understand that your DH in this state is a financial risk to you. Debt accrued during the marriage is a joint responsibility. If your DH is running up bar and hooker tabs on a credit card, whether it's in his name only or joint, those debts are still 50% your responsibility. You need to take $500 from any joint or solo accounts and see an attorney. You need advice from the attorney about how to protect yourself financially both inside the marriage and through divorce. Also get advice about the timing of filing for divorce, how you can protect joint assets and what the likely timeline of filing and settlement are and what you can expect in terms of assets, alimony, etc. in divorce. You may not feel ready for divorce, but you do need information about that option at a minimum at this stage.

If you do not have access to your own money because you are unemployed, you need to start skimming money from any joint accounts you have access to. All income coming into the marriage is joint income, so do not feel bad about "skimming" if you do not have accounts in your name only. Take cash out when you go to the gas station, the grocery and the pharmacy. Set up your own bank account and opt for electronic statements.

Here are some other resources:

Read Francis Mondimore's Bipolar: A Guide for Patients and Families. This is an excellent primer on bipolar.

Also read Xavier Amador's "I'm not sick; I don't need help" -- Patients with bipolar often experience "anosognosia," which is an inability to recognize that oneself is sick. This is what is happening with your DH right now. It is VERY common for bipolar patients not to recognize their own mania. They think everything is great and they are at their best in life and everyone else is the problem.

Go to the bpso.org website. Read everything there. Click on "bpso membership" and sign up for the bpso email listserv. Once you are on the listserv, write an introductory email with a description of what has been going on with your DH. I guarantee you, many people will respond to the list with similar situations. What you are describing is classic hypomania induced by SSRI.

Please, please, get yourself a job, any job ASAP. PP above is correct in saying that this is the tightest job market in years, but it could fall apart at any moment. There are signs of weakness in the economy. Our president is a nut job who could do something to trigger an economic down turn (like shutting down the government in order to avoid being impeached). And, we have an election next year, and the market is likely to plummet if a Democrat is elected because the market is mostly conservative Republicans and they hate Dems and Dem economic policy even though it saved their butts in our recent near Great Depression. Walk into a temp agency today and start temping. Save as much money as you can so that you can be ready to move out.

Change your behavior with your DH. As you can see, he is not in a rational state and will not respond to rational statements from you that you think his meds are off, he is in danger of losing his job, he can't/shouldn't speak to you meanly, etc. Do a 180. Interact with him very little and only politely and without much emotion. If he is irritable toward or physical to you, just withdraw and go to another room. Learn to use phrases that are non-responses. Things like -- "Hmm. That's interesting, I'll think about that, I hear what you're saying, etc."

Finally, please reach out to some friends or family. You must have someone here in DC. Choose at least a couple sympathetic people to tell. Get your own therapist, preferably one that specializes in mood disorders. If you are on your DH's health insurance, you can find someone in network that can help you. You may need to move out in a hurry if your DH gets violent, which is entirely possible. You can continue to try to help him, but you also have to recognize that being able to control him and force him to get help is not a realistic possibility. Get yourself prepared to file for divorce and move out.

FWIW, my DH experienced this SSRI induced bipolar. I had two kids at the time. I had to end the relationship. It wasn't until I kicked him out that he finally changed doctors and found one that understood what was going on and put him on a mood stabilizer. It made a huge difference. Sadly, it was too late to fix our relationship, but at least the kids and I got out safely. You might have to recognize that at a certain point, the best thing you can do for your DH is to leave him. Right now he blames you for his mood. But, once you are gone, he will not have you to blame and that may present a final wake up call for him.

I am not clear when you say you are "waiting to gain financial stability"? What is your employment situation? Your savings (both joint and individual)? Is there some event that will happen soon that you think will magically provide you financial stability (graduation? inheritance? )

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:Op here. It has now been 3 months and my DH behavior has completely deteriorated. He refuses to come home and stays out all day every day until 4 am or sleeps overnight. He says he is “sleeping at the office” but the gps tracker on his phone shows that he is out at bars and restaurants and then winds up at random addresses and hotels. I have spied multiple hookup apps on his phone and multiple random numbers that belong to random local women and even an escort service.

He cannot bear to be around me and screams and yells at me saying he hates me and I need to go away. When I tried to confront him
About his hookup app he screamed at me and threatened to kick me out and chased me around the apartment almost hitting me. He harbors so much anger and resentment towards me. He is drinking every night all night. He sleeps in until 2 pm and goes into work at 3 pm. He tells everyone he is depressed because of his crazy wife that won’t stop screaming at him and falsely accusing him of cheating.

He has suddenly withdrawn all contact and affection from me. He acts so distant and cold and makes me feel like a worm.

I feel like I am in a fog. Im still around as I am not employed, and am waiting to gain financial stability. How will I survive this?

OP, I gave you advice at 08/05 13:16. I have been through what you are going through right now. Your DH is experiencing mania triggered by SSRI. All the signs are there -- increased irritability, staying up late at night and not sleeping, hypersexuality (the hookers and randoms), drinking, not going to work until 3 pm, etc. The drinking is an attempt to self-medicate to counter the hypomania in order to be able to sleep.

For the sake of your husband, please write a fax to the Doctor who is prescribing his SSRIs and describe factually all the behavior you are seeing with examples, and ask for the Dr. to stop or taper off the SSRI. State that you are concerned that his behavior is a harm to self or others -- that he may lose his job and has come close to hitting you. Include your contact information and state that you are willing to come in to a joint appointment. I would actually state that you are concerned and would like the doctor to consider whether your DH is experiencing SSRI-induced hypomania and ask the doctor to consider whether a mood stabilizer should be either switched out for the SSRI or used to augment the SSRI. Suggestion such a specific diagnosis can be a bit risky -- on the one hand, doctors hate having their medical judgment questioned, especially by a woman. On the other hand, you (and your DH) have nothing to lose; if he stays on the current course, he will lose his marriage, job, etc. The doctor may or may not contact you; it depends on their view of their responsibilities under HIPAA vs. their medical responsibilities to the patient. You can't do anything to control that.

The next thing you need to do is lock down financials. I know you have said that you are not financially stable. Do you have any $$ held jointly? You have to understand that your DH in this state is a financial risk to you. Debt accrued during the marriage is a joint responsibility. If your DH is running up bar and hooker tabs on a credit card, whether it's in his name only or joint, those debts are still 50% your responsibility. You need to take $500 from any joint or solo accounts and see an attorney. You need advice from the attorney about how to protect yourself financially both inside the marriage and through divorce. Also get advice about the timing of filing for divorce, how you can protect joint assets and what the likely timeline of filing and settlement are and what you can expect in terms of assets, alimony, etc. in divorce. You may not feel ready for divorce, but you do need information about that option at a minimum at this stage.

If you do not have access to your own money because you are unemployed, you need to start skimming money from any joint accounts you have access to. All income coming into the marriage is joint income, so do not feel bad about "skimming" if you do not have accounts in your name only. Take cash out when you go to the gas station, the grocery and the pharmacy. Set up your own bank account and opt for electronic statements.

Here are some other resources:

Read Francis Mondimore's Bipolar: A Guide for Patients and Families. This is an excellent primer on bipolar.

Also read Xavier Amador's "I'm not sick; I don't need help" -- Patients with bipolar often experience "anosognosia," which is an inability to recognize that oneself is sick. This is what is happening with your DH right now. It is VERY common for bipolar patients not to recognize their own mania. They think everything is great and they are at their best in life and everyone else is the problem.

Go to the bpso.org website. Read everything there. Click on "bpso membership" and sign up for the bpso email listserv. Once you are on the listserv, write an introductory email with a description of what has been going on with your DH. I guarantee you, many people will respond to the list with similar situations. What you are describing is classic hypomania induced by SSRI.

Please, please, get yourself a job, any job ASAP. PP above is correct in saying that this is the tightest job market in years, but it could fall apart at any moment. There are signs of weakness in the economy. Our president is a nut job who could do something to trigger an economic down turn (like shutting down the government in order to avoid being impeached). And, we have an election next year, and the market is likely to plummet if a Democrat is elected because the market is mostly conservative Republicans and they hate Dems and Dem economic policy even though it saved their butts in our recent near Great Depression. Walk into a temp agency today and start temping. Save as much money as you can so that you can be ready to move out.

Change your behavior with your DH. As you can see, he is not in a rational state and will not respond to rational statements from you that you think his meds are off, he is in danger of losing his job, he can't/shouldn't speak to you meanly, etc. Do a 180. Interact with him very little and only politely and without much emotion. If he is irritable toward or physical to you, just withdraw and go to another room. Learn to use phrases that are non-responses. Things like -- "Hmm. That's interesting, I'll think about that, I hear what you're saying, etc."

Finally, please reach out to some friends or family. You must have someone here in DC. Choose at least a couple sympathetic people to tell. Get your own therapist, preferably one that specializes in mood disorders. If you are on your DH's health insurance, you can find someone in network that can help you. You may need to move out in a hurry if your DH gets violent, which is entirely possible. You can continue to try to help him, but you also have to recognize that being able to control him and force him to get help is not a realistic possibility. Get yourself prepared to file for divorce and move out.

FWIW, my DH experienced this SSRI induced bipolar. I had two kids at the time. I had to end the relationship. It wasn't until I kicked him out that he finally changed doctors and found one that understood what was going on and put him on a mood stabilizer. It made a huge difference. Sadly, it was too late to fix our relationship, but at least the kids and I got out safely. You might have to recognize that at a certain point, the best thing you can do for your DH is to leave him. Right now he blames you for his mood. But, once you are gone, he will not have you to blame and that may present a final wake up call for him.

I am not clear when you say you are "waiting to gain financial stability"? What is your employment situation? Your savings (both joint and individual)? Is there some event that will happen soon that you think will magically provide you financial stability (graduation? inheritance? )

Stopped reading here. No credibility after this

[Anonymous]

Contact his prescribing doctor and present him with all this evidence. This is an emergency.

[Anonymous]

Op here. I am an immigrant so I have no local family and few friends. I am trying my best to find a job and get out. I am beyond devastated and broken. I do not recognize this man.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:Op here. It has now been 3 months and my DH behavior has completely deteriorated. He refuses to come home and stays out all day every day until 4 am or sleeps overnight. He says he is “sleeping at the office” but the gps tracker on his phone shows that he is out at bars and restaurants and then winds up at random addresses and hotels. I have spied multiple hookup apps on his phone and multiple random numbers that belong to random local women and even an escort service.

He cannot bear to be around me and screams and yells at me saying he hates me and I need to go away. When I tried to confront him
About his hookup app he screamed at me and threatened to kick me out and chased me around the apartment almost hitting me. He harbors so much anger and resentment towards me. He is drinking every night all night. He sleeps in until 2 pm and goes into work at 3 pm. He tells everyone he is depressed because of his crazy wife that won’t stop screaming at him and falsely accusing him of cheating.

He has suddenly withdrawn all contact and affection from me. He acts so distant and cold and makes me feel like a worm.

I feel like I am in a fog. Im still around as I am not employed, and am waiting to gain financial stability. How will I survive this?

I'm so sorry.

You don't say in this update-- Did you ever go to his doctor(s) and do as several PPs advised back in August and tell his doctors about the huge change in behavior? Did you try to convince any doctor that your husband might be reacting to meds? Has he seen ANYone professional since you first posted? I'm guessing no. If you did approach his doctors what did they say or do? I'd contact them today if you haven't yet. But don't do it, then wait at home hoping a doctor is going to locate and help him.

What you describe above sounds like an extended manic period or maybe even a psychotic break ("psychotic" here goes not mean what you might picture from movies or TV, OP. It means breaking with reality -- as in, a mind that is not accepting reality/is living in its own reality). Whatever the label or diagnosis for him, clearly he's very mentally ill (or addicted to something you don't know about). It's past time to realize that while you want to help him, YOU are unprotected right now. As in, today, here, now.

Are your finances mingled? Joint accounts and joint credit cards? He could drain every penny. How are you paying your rent or mortgage and keeping a roof over your head? Direct debits? He could end those at any time. How are you keeping health insurance--is that through his employer? There's nothing to stop him from telling his HR department to drop you from insurance, other benefits. Is he even going to work? If he's never coming home, for all you know he might have quit or been fired. If you ask him about it it sounds as if he wouldn't answer or would just lie because his brain thinks you're an enemy. He may be unemployed and burning through all your money in his illness. It's tragic but if you are suddenly homeless, without income or insurance if you get sick, you will be dragged down into poverty worse than you can picture. You can't help him (if you're still inclined to) if you are yourself destitute and he won't communicate on finances or mortgage/rent, etc.

Please, please go out today and contact your nearest "women's center." These are all over the place. They help advise women who are in positions like yours, usually women trying to get out of a marriage. They can help you list what you need to do ASAP and can point you toward help. If you think "but I don't want a divorce so I won't go" then go anyway.

Go to your bank and find out if he's draining accounts. Do you have any accounts in your own name only? If not, get one. Check the credit cards immediately. Ensure your insurance is in place. Do you know any of his coworkers (not his boss) well enough to contact them outside work and ask if he's been at work? (That last one can be risky to do, though.)

Start finding ANY job. Working in a store, a coffee shop, anything to start an income. Are you job-hunting all these months and hoping for a career position in a specific field? Put it on hold and get some income going, no matter how basic the job seems.

This list seems overwhelming to you, I'm sure. That's why I'd get to a women's center (free) and get advice and support today. You need a list and a plan and there are considerations I'm missing here, for sure.

Are you safe, physically? Anyone you can stay with so if he comes home angry, you aren't around?

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:Op here. I am an immigrant so I have no local family and few friends. I am trying my best to find a job and get out. I am beyond devastated and broken. I do not recognize this man.

We're all immigrants. That's not an excuse. Get a job.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:Op here. I am an immigrant so I have no local family and few friends. I am trying my best to find a job and get out. I am beyond devastated and broken. I do not recognize this man.

Seriously, maybe you should go back to your country of origin, at least temporarily. I am not saying that to be mean. Staying with him is not an option.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:Op here. I am an immigrant so I have no local family and few friends. I am trying my best to find a job and get out. I am beyond devastated and broken. I do not recognize this man.

PP above. if you can't stay with a friend please consider a women's shelter. He is screaming at you when he comes home and you can never know if he might come home any moment. This is abusive. He could lash out physically at any time. Shelters are NOT only for people who are already being hit--they are there for people being verbally abused too. You are bein abused verbally and mentally as well.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:Op here. I am an immigrant so I have no local family and few friends. I am trying my best to find a job and get out. I am beyond devastated and broken. I do not recognize this man.

There are resources for immigrants who are victims of domestic violence and abuse. At this point you are a domestic violence victim as well as an abuse victim. I can also understand completely if you are concerned that ICE may get involved (if you are undocumented) or wanting to stay in it until your citizenship is cleared.

Consider getting a TPO restraining order against him for the abuse. I know you don't have a job right now but this can also help you get triaged into a shelter/ eligible for funding for housing in place.

If his name is on the lease for the apartment and yours is not, that is better financially for you.

However there are places you can go and people who you can talk to without fear of ICE. Please talk with someone well versed in immigration and domestic violence issues.

Here is a link to an announcement that contains links to all of the newly funded non profits and agencies that specialize in both immigration and domestic violence.

https://mayor.dc.gov/release/mayor-bowser-awards-over-2-million-support-immigrant-rights

In this way you can break free, maintain your citizenship, and begin to rebuild your life.

Reclaim your freedom girl.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:Op here. I am an immigrant so I have no local family and few friends. I am trying my best to find a job and get out. I am beyond devastated and broken. I do not recognize this man.

We're all immigrants. That's not an excuse. Get a job.

Stow your meanness. OP may be in an immigration status that makes getting many jobs difficult. You have no way to know.

And some employers are not receptive to immigrants.

So easy to bark at her to just "get a job." Of course she should get a job immediately if at all possible. But you have no idea what's really going on with her.

[Anonymous]

Try to get a live-in nanny situation. Get out and get employed ASAP. If necessary, consider going back to your home country and be near family/friends. This is not ever going to be a long-term situation for you.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:Op here. I am an immigrant so I have no local family and few friends. I am trying my best to find a job and get out. I am beyond devastated and broken. I do not recognize this man.

We're all immigrants. That's not an excuse. Get a job.

Stow your meanness. OP may be in an immigration status that makes getting many jobs difficult. You have no way to know.

And some employers are not receptive to immigrants.

So easy to bark at her to just "get a job." Of course she should get a job immediately if at all possible. But you have no idea what's really going on with her.

BS. OP is full of excuses.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:
For the sake of your husband, please write a fax to the Doctor who is prescribing his SSRIs and describe factually all the behavior you are seeing with examples, and ask for the Dr. to stop or taper off the SSRI. State that you are concerned that his behavior is a harm to self or others -- that he may lose his job and has come close to hitting you. Include your contact information and state that you are willing to come in to a joint appointment. I would actually state that you are concerned and would like the doctor to consider whether your DH is experiencing SSRI-induced hypomania and ask the doctor to consider whether a mood stabilizer should be either switched out for the SSRI or used to augment the SSRI. Suggestion such a specific diagnosis can be a bit risky -- on the one hand, doctors hate having their medical judgment questioned, especially by a woman. On the other hand, you (and your DH) have nothing to lose; if he stays on the current course, he will lose his marriage, job, etc. The doctor may or may not contact you; it depends on their view of their responsibilities under HIPAA vs. their medical responsibilities to the patient. You can't do anything to control that.

The next thing you need to do is lock down financials. I know you have said that you are not financially stable. Do you have any $$ held jointly? You have to understand that your DH in this state is a financial risk to you. Debt accrued during the marriage is a joint responsibility. If your DH is running up bar and hooker tabs on a credit card, whether it's in his name only or joint, those debts are still 50% your responsibility. You need to take $500 from any joint or solo accounts and see an attorney. You need advice from the attorney about how to protect yourself financially both inside the marriage and through divorce. Also get advice about the timing of filing for divorce, how you can protect joint assets and what the likely timeline of filing and settlement are and what you can expect in terms of assets, alimony, etc. in divorce. You may not feel ready for divorce, but you do need information about that option at a minimum at this stage.

If you do not have access to your own money because you are unemployed, you need to start skimming money from any joint accounts you have access to. All income coming into the marriage is joint income, so do not feel bad about "skimming" if you do not have accounts in your name only. Take cash out when you go to the gas station, the grocery and the pharmacy. Set up your own bank account and opt for electronic statements.

Here are some other resources:

Read Francis Mondimore's Bipolar: A Guide for Patients and Families. This is an excellent primer on bipolar.

Also read Xavier Amador's "I'm not sick; I don't need help" -- Patients with bipolar often experience "anosognosia," which is an inability to recognize that oneself is sick. This is what is happening with your DH right now. It is VERY common for bipolar patients not to recognize their own mania. They think everything is great and they are at their best in life and everyone else is the problem.

Go to the bpso.org website. Read everything there. Click on "bpso membership" and sign up for the bpso email listserv. Once you are on the listserv, write an introductory email with a description of what has been going on with your DH. I guarantee you, many people will respond to the list with similar situations. What you are describing is classic hypomania induced by SSRI.

Please, please, get yourself a job, any job ASAP. PP above is correct in saying that this is the tightest job market in years, but it could fall apart at any moment. There are signs of weakness in the economy. Our president is a nut job who could do something to trigger an economic down turn (like shutting down the government in order to avoid being impeached). And, we have an election next year, and the market is likely to plummet if a Democrat is elected because the market is mostly conservative Republicans and they hate Dems and Dem economic policy even though it saved their butts in our recent near Great Depression. Walk into a temp agency today and start temping. Save as much money as you can so that you can be ready to move out.

Change your behavior with your DH. As you can see, he is not in a rational state and will not respond to rational statements from you that you think his meds are off, he is in danger of losing his job, he can't/shouldn't speak to you meanly, etc. Do a 180. Interact with him very little and only politely and without much emotion. If he is irritable toward or physical to you, just withdraw and go to another room. Learn to use phrases that are non-responses. Things like -- "Hmm. That's interesting, I'll think about that, I hear what you're saying, etc."

Finally, please reach out to some friends or family. You must have someone here in DC. Choose at least a couple sympathetic people to tell. Get your own therapist, preferably one that specializes in mood disorders. If you are on your DH's health insurance, you can find someone in network that can help you. You may need to move out in a hurry if your DH gets violent, which is entirely possible. You can continue to try to help him, but you also have to recognize that being able to control him and force him to get help is not a realistic possibility. Get yourself prepared to file for divorce and move out.

FWIW, my DH experienced this SSRI induced bipolar. I had two kids at the time. I had to end the relationship. It wasn't until I kicked him out that he finally changed doctors and found one that understood what was going on and put him on a mood stabilizer. It made a huge difference. Sadly, it was too late to fix our relationship, but at least the kids and I got out safely. You might have to recognize that at a certain point, the best thing you can do for your DH is to leave him. Right now he blames you for his mood. But, once you are gone, he will not have you to blame and that may present a final wake up call for him.

I am not clear when you say you are "waiting to gain financial stability"? What is your employment situation? Your savings (both joint and individual)? Is there some event that will happen soon that you think will magically provide you financial stability (graduation? inheritance? )

Stopped reading here. No credibility after this

No credibility after "write a fax"? Obviously, you have never been in this situation. You want to notify the doctor's office immediately in a written form that documents that the written letter has been delivered. All doctor's offices still have fax numbers these days even though the technology seems antiquated because doctors fax information back and forth to health insurance providers.

Email doesn't provide the same verification of delivery and is not viewed legally as the same kind of proof.

You could try to email and ask the doctor's office to "confirm receipt of email," but some doctors will not do this because they believe it implies that the person you're writing about is a patient and therefore the doctor has violated HIPAA. This is an incorrect legal understanding of HIPAA, but nonetheless, fax is the way to go and it is easy to do now via various online apps.