I wish I was never born

[Anonymous]

OP, I love that you try. You sound awesome and like a very special person. I hate it when people don't give a crap/don't try. And it means more because you try DESPITE. You are a hero to your kids already- and they don't even know this about you!!

Just keep doing that- trying- every day. I am a firm believer that even if you were born that way there may have been things in your upbringing that contributed, so keep analysing your lived experiences.

[Anonymous]

Keep trying. We are rooting for you and sending you strength.

You are important. You matter.

[Anonymous]

I feel this so hard right now. I just don't want to suffer anymore. I just want to sleep forever.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:It's the only solution I can think of that would have prevented the miserable and depressed life I have lived. I don't want to consider killing myself, would never do it because of my kids, but I truly truly wish I had never been born since I was born with this anomaly of a brain.

I have been depressed and anxious and screwed up my whole life. I know it was a mistake, and not my fault, but why was I born then? I haven't don't anything worthwhile other than have kids that lived with a depressed mother who married a man with problems, and added another mess to the world.


Depression is so horrible of a beast. If you try to hide it, it eats you up inside. If you express it, people don't like you, avoid you, or get annoyed and angry at you. I have nowhere to turn anymore except my therapist (just started). I hate what it has done to my life and it's not fair. I have never felt joy. I have taken up space here and it was a waste. No one can understand what it feels like to KNOW that you are depressed and know that your thinking is not right, but not be able to do anything about it or change it. I KNOW I should be different but I cannot for the life of me get a handle on it, despite trying meds, therapy in the past, etc.


If I could have one wish it would be this one....that I had never existed to begin with.


Sorry to be a downer, but I have tried. I told my husband that that is what I want written on my tombstone. She tried. Because I really did. Every second of every day I have fought this beast, but I'm not winning.

Every one is valuable and every life has a purpose. Have you ever thought that one time you smiled at a stranger and your smile was the one thing they needed to not commit suicide?

[Anonymous]

I do it think every life has a purpose. Some people did terrible things in past lives and that is the karma they must deal with today. Some people just have terrible, sad, depressing lives.

[Anonymous]

Also smiling at strangers is thought of as very odd where I am from. It's a sign on unwellness of mind.

[Anonymous]

I feel that way too OP. I’ve attempted suicide and sometimes am angry I didn’t succeed. I have kids and friends and a healthy relationship and job but all I think about is what a piece of shit I am. I am tired of fighting my mental demons that preclude me from finding joy or peace.

I lost a friend this week to cancer and the irony of her fighting to live while I’m fighting to die feels like a sick joke. When I was hospitalized after my suicide attempt a number of patients shared that they envied people with cancer because the latter got sympathy. we get told we are too feeble minded and don’t have grit.

No one wants to live with my brain. It’s hell and I am so tired of suffering.

[Anonymous]

https://wibc.com/108211/pew-study-white-liberals-disproportionately-suffer-from-mental-illness/

[Anonymous]

Re-reading this post three years later, I hope that OP has succeeded in her battle against depression.

With the right medication along w/a good therapist, hopefully her life has improved.

Living w/depression is HELL.
Every waking moment just hurts & it always seems there is no end in sight.

Rationality (all of it!) goes out the window which definitely is not healthy.

But there is a ton of help available + many people have been living the life they truly deserve because of it. ❤️