Confessions

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:I lost my virginity when I was 8 year old (went to spend the weekend with my little friend and her family and her 11 or 12 y. old brother decided to play “curious”) and I was raped when I was 10 by an adult friend of my family (anal sex - if you can call that rape).
Growing up it tormented me that I was not “sure” if I was virgin or not since I didn’t have a clear idea of what had happened in that Saturday afternoon when I was 8 (just remember the intense pain)… at 19 I just decided to have sex with a “one night stand” just to get over with it and be officially “not virgin” and know “for sure”.
Never told a soul until some months ago when I told a relative. I regret it deeply because I am afraid she can someday; somehow tell that to someone else and it would devastate me.

Sorry to hear that. I hope you're ok now. I was amost raped/molested by a friend of my father when I was 14. My father took his side and I hated him (my father ever since)!!

[Anonymous]

I looked for support from my sister regarding an abortion. She told her judgmental husband who made nasty comments. They spun a story that was vicious and untrue and gave them justification to snub me. Strong suggestion: don't trust ANYONE with these personal, painful times. They will hurt you very badly. Don't tell.....especially if you are catholic.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:I lost my virginity when I was 8 year old (went to spend the weekend with my little friend and her family and her 11 or 12 y. old brother decided to play “curious”) and I was raped when I was 10 by an adult friend of my family (anal sex - if you can call that rape).
Growing up it tormented me that I was not “sure” if I was virgin or not since I didn’t have a clear idea of what had happened in that Saturday afternoon when I was 8 (just remember the intense pain)… at 19 I just decided to have sex with a “one night stand” just to get over with it and be officially “not virgin” and know “for sure”.
Never told a soul until some months ago when I told a relative. I regret it deeply because I am afraid she can someday; somehow tell that to someone else and it would devastate me.

The first one was sexual abuse, too. there's a big difference sexually between an 8 year old girl and a 12 year old boy.

IMO, you're a virgin until you give it up of your own free will and desire. Maybe not in the medical sense, but socially/emotionally.

i hope you have been able to work through this and not feel guilt or shame over it- you shouldn't. easier said than done, though.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:I lost my virginity when I was 8 year old (went to spend the weekend with my little friend and her family and her 11 or 12 y. old brother decided to play “curious”) and I was raped when I was 10 by an adult friend of my family (anal sex - if you can call that rape).
Growing up it tormented me that I was not “sure” if I was virgin or not since I didn’t have a clear idea of what had happened in that Saturday afternoon when I was 8 (just remember the intense pain)… at 19 I just decided to have sex with a “one night stand” just to get over with it and be officially “not virgin” and know “for sure”.
Never told a soul until some months ago when I told a relative. I regret it deeply because I am afraid she can someday; somehow tell that to someone else and it would devastate me.

I sure as hell can. I'm sorry this happened to you, and I hope you'll find someone to talk to about it someday. I really do think it'd help.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:I lost my virginity when I was 8 year old (went to spend the weekend with my little friend and her family and her 11 or 12 y. old brother decided to play “curious”) and I was raped when I was 10 by an adult friend of my family (anal sex - if you can call that rape).
Growing up it tormented me that I was not “sure” if I was virgin or not since I didn’t have a clear idea of what had happened in that Saturday afternoon when I was 8 (just remember the intense pain)… at 19 I just decided to have sex with a “one night stand” just to get over with it and be officially “not virgin” and know “for sure”.
Never told a soul until some months ago when I told a relative. I regret it deeply because I am afraid she can someday; somehow tell that to someone else and it would devastate me.

I sure as hell can. I'm sorry this happened to you, and I hope you'll find someone to talk to about it someday. I really do think it'd help.

You were most certainly raped. Period.
I really encourage you to see a therapist. This kind of childhood trauma can be really damaging. A good therapist will be wonderful for you, I am sure. Write back if you need a recommendation. I am sure many people (including me) would be happy to give you some names. I have an in-law who was raped by her brother throughout childhood. Seeing a shrink had an extraordinary impact on her and has made her so much happier. She has cut her family out of her life and found her own place in the world.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:I am sick of breastfeeding. My newborn nurses well and is growing but MY GOD he nurses 22 out of 24 hours a day. I can't do anything. I can't move because he is always attached to my nipple. I am thinking formula would at least free me up to PEE and SHOWER. [/quote

http://www.askmoxie.org/

Ask Moxie just had a post about this -- check it out!

I wanted to thank whoever posted this link. This sounds exactly like what is going on with us. Thanks so much!!!!

[Anonymous]

I have some relatives who did a really bad thing. And later they had a horribly disabled child. And sometimes I think they certainly got what they deserved.

[Anonymous]

I was a terrible bitch today. Terrible.

[Anonymous]

I act like I hate the woman who had an affair with my husband. But secretly I am so grateful to her for giving me an excuse to get out of this marriage.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:I was a terrible bitch today. Terrible.

Me too. And now I feel awful.

[Anonymous]

I ate at McDonalds today. Lunch, dinner, and snack. Supersize Me, here I come...

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:I ate at McDonalds today. Lunch, dinner, and snack. Supersize Me, here I come...

depends on what you ate.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:I ate at McDonalds today. Lunch, dinner, and snack. Supersize Me, here I come...

depends on what you ate.

Big'n'tasty, small fry

Vanilla Cone (150 calories because it's CHEMICALS)

Southern Style chicken snadwish, extra pickle

Excuse me, I have to go listen to my arteries harden...

[Anonymous]

"sandwich". I REALLY can't type after getting home from the office at 1 a.m. on a holiday weekend.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:I ate at McDonalds today. Lunch, dinner, and snack. Supersize Me, here I come...

depends on what you ate.

Big'n'tasty, small fry

Vanilla Cone (150 calories because it's CHEMICALS)

Southern Style chicken snadwish, extra pickle

Excuse me, I have to go listen to my arteries harden...

mmkay. not the healthiest choices there, but hey, most of us do it sometime! me included. though I gave up mcdonalds for the most part a very very long time ago....chick fil a however....

(and dear god, their milkshakes are like 700 calories...but so, so, so good!)