Uncertain future after divorce scares the heck out of me

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:No OP I don't feel like that at all. I'm a divorced dad, living in a nice house in a nice neighborhood, and enjoying time with my hot young girlfriend who I met 8 years after the divorce.

Full of empathy 🤣

What a loser.

[Anonymous]

Sounds like grief to me and it sounds pat but grief has its own time table.Keep pushing forward one, minute, hour, day, etc., at a time.

Best wishes. Signed divorced parent who has 100% custody (things were that bad) which means I went through the grieving process while still having to take care of a little human being 100% of the time. We spent a lot of time out of the house, exploring, overnight hiking trips (Shenandoah), the beach in and off season, museums, dinners at restaurants were always a treat, time with family and friends.

Of course I grieved what could have been if only…But we have a nice home, that’s safe, free of tension, peaceful and full of warmth. Wouldn’t go back because I’d have to give up those things which I’ve worked so hard to create.

Give it time, feel what you feel, rest, breathe, work linger hours, do what brings you peace of mind when you don’t have the kids, and plan fun outings when you do., things have a way of getting much better over time.

[Anonymous]

Everyone’s future is uncertain OP.

[Anonymous]

Why did you choose divorce? Just curious.

It doesn’t sound like it was well thought out.

[Anonymous]

I was like this for the first two years after my divorce. It was like the path my life was heading down ended an abruptly and I was so incredibly lost. It took a lot of soul searching, some bad decisions and time to really get to a place where I was comfortable with myself. I finally came to terms with the fact that this season of my life was going to be different than what I’d planned and been working toward, and I needed to work toward shaping what I wanted it to look like. I started to enjoy my own company and appreciate not having to compromise for a partner. Once I became healthy the world opened up. My life is a million times better than it was, and q every day I feel like I won the lottery.

Give yourself time to grieve. Start trying to figure out what it is that you enjoy doing, and do it!

[Anonymous]

Whatever your gender, op, it takes at least a year to even file for divorce. That means your ex had and probably used a lot of opportunities to tell you they weren’t happy and you did absolutely nothing. If you didn’t cheat, and maybe you didn’t, you very likely gave priority to everything but your spouse.
My husband and I got into it this morning because he prioritized a volunteer commitment over our kids’ activities. He commented on why I can’t be nice and why did we bother to volunteer and I told him that the leader of the organization cancels these meetings whenever she feels like it so I’ve stopped making them a priority. I pointed out that my husband was talking to me like a coworker not a beloved spouse. I told him that my kids are the priority, neither one of them can get themselves to their activities and they both need to be doing these activities because I am raising leaders of tomorrow. In other words, if the lady in charge of the organization we volunteer with *didn’t* cancel meetings, I might just care a little more.
All this is fine to have with a coworker or someone you aren’t married to, it’s annoying af to do it with your spouse who also needs you to be loving and kid.
The conversation with my husband wasn’t all that bad, but it could have gotten ugly and I can see myself saying “If this keeps up, you can do all the volunteering you want because I won’t be living with you, and actually meaning it. I was that annoyed because one of my roles in the organization is to handle the meetings when the leader can’t be there, yet instead of doing that, she just cancels. So, I decided that since I can’t just cancel, I can do other things like not show up because both my kids have activities tonight.
My point in all this is that you probably neglected your marriage to the point where your ex decided you’d be happier doing your own thing and you found out that that thing whatever it was wasn’t there to hang out with you on Friday night. You also found out that those people you used to live with who prevented you from doing that thing weren’t so bad after all.
This is why I say it’s crucial married people take care of their marriage and prioritize each other. This volunteer org can get 2 people just like my husband and me, and it will have to because we can’t serve forever. My kids can’t get new parents and while my husband and I could always end the marriage, neither of us want to which doesn’t mean I’m chill with prioritizing a random organization with a poor leader over my kids, and I’m really not chill with being told I made a commitment. I did, to my husband and my kids. I also made a commitment to an org where I expected to be there once a month. The leader didn’t want that so my commitment is over, I’m there if and when I want to be and tonight isn’t it. I don’t need my husband lecturing about commitment.
I’d suggest talking with your ex if you want them back. Let them know they will be your main concern above absolutely everything else. If they are supposed to go out with friends and you want them home, they stay home. Whatever you guys decide you need and want, that’s what happens. If you prefer your own thing, well, you’ve now got it, op. Your spouse didn’t or you wouldn’t be posting.
I want to feel sorry, but I don’t. You made all this happen. At least now, op, but at least now you’ve got the time to do whatever you want, except probably be with the people you love more then anything. Enjoy it.

[Anonymous]

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Anonymous wrote:Let me guess: you got caught cheating or were cheating and thought you’d end up with AP or that you could do better than your husband.

OP is a man. No woman would say she feels like a "total loser". A divorced female would be on dating sites dating endlessly.

You really think this sounds like a guy?

“I imagined holidays where the kids come home, my spouse and I helping with grandkids, me and my spouse on vacation, our home filled with happiness.”

I definitely think this sounds like a guy. Women express one of two things post-divorce: anxiety over finances, or relief to be out from under the constant stress of an unhappy home (or both). Very, very few women cut and run without trying. Once we're done, we're done.

Really? I know a ton of women who didn't want the divorce and would take their husbands back in a heartbeat. Life isn't better seeing your kids half the time.

This is me. I am so, so sad for me and my kids. If he just showed 1 ounce of regret for his long-time affair and be open to try to save our marriage/family, I would agree and give all my energy to work on it. but he won't. it's devastating.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:What is completely lacking in your post is any love or feeling for your ex-husband, glaringly so.

You want the lifestyle again. Your envisioned single girl life was t the Shangri-La you thought it would be.

You still don’t care about him at all—just your vision of grandkids and travel. Now you don’t have the funds to travel and have to split time with the grandkids—w/out a yard for them to play in.

Hmm, I read the post as being written by a man.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote: Whatever your gender, op, it takes at least a year to even file for divorce. That means your ex had and probably used a lot of opportunities to tell you they weren’t happy and you did absolutely nothing. If you didn’t cheat, and maybe you didn’t, you very likely gave priority to everything but your spouse.
My husband and I got into it this morning because he prioritized a volunteer commitment over our kids’ activities. He commented on why I can’t be nice and why did we bother to volunteer and I told him that the leader of the organization cancels these meetings whenever she feels like it so I’ve stopped making them a priority. I pointed out that my husband was talking to me like a coworker not a beloved spouse. I told him that my kids are the priority, neither one of them can get themselves to their activities and they both need to be doing these activities because I am raising leaders of tomorrow. In other words, if the lady in charge of the organization we volunteer with *didn’t* cancel meetings, I might just care a little more.
All this is fine to have with a coworker or someone you aren’t married to, it’s annoying af to do it with your spouse who also needs you to be loving and kid.
The conversation with my husband wasn’t all that bad, but it could have gotten ugly and I can see myself saying “If this keeps up, you can do all the volunteering you want because I won’t be living with you, and actually meaning it. I was that annoyed because one of my roles in the organization is to handle the meetings when the leader can’t be there, yet instead of doing that, she just cancels. So, I decided that since I can’t just cancel, I can do other things like not show up because both my kids have activities tonight.
My point in all this is that you probably neglected your marriage to the point where your ex decided you’d be happier doing your own thing and you found out that that thing whatever it was wasn’t there to hang out with you on Friday night. You also found out that those people you used to live with who prevented you from doing that thing weren’t so bad after all.
This is why I say it’s crucial married people take care of their marriage and prioritize each other. This volunteer org can get 2 people just like my husband and me, and it will have to because we can’t serve forever. My kids can’t get new parents and while my husband and I could always end the marriage, neither of us want to which doesn’t mean I’m chill with prioritizing a random organization with a poor leader over my kids, and I’m really not chill with being told I made a commitment. I did, to my husband and my kids. I also made a commitment to an org where I expected to be there once a month. The leader didn’t want that so my commitment is over, I’m there if and when I want to be and tonight isn’t it. I don’t need my husband lecturing about commitment.
I’d suggest talking with your ex if you want them back. Let them know they will be your main concern above absolutely everything else. If they are supposed to go out with friends and you want them home, they stay home. Whatever you guys decide you need and want, that’s what happens. If you prefer your own thing, well, you’ve now got it, op. Your spouse didn’t or you wouldn’t be posting.
I want to feel sorry, but I don’t. You made all this happen. At least now, op, but at least now you’ve got the time to do whatever you want, except probably be with the people you love more then anything. Enjoy it.

I need to remember this story for the next time DH and I argue. If I said I was “raising leaders of tomorrow,” we would both laugh so hard we’d forget what we were fighting about.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:Make your own happiness. Work on yourself. Join a divorce support group. Join a gym. Try a new sport (tennis or golf for example). There is no reason to feel like a loser. Divorce is common. You need to move forward and stop thinking of the past.

Agree with this! I imagine you divorced for a good reason - don’t forget that. Now you can work on yourself, and the world is your oyster! Friends, relationships, health, travel, hobbies. Invest in yourself!

[Anonymous]

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Anonymous wrote:Let me guess: you got caught cheating or were cheating and thought you’d end up with AP or that you could do better than your husband.

OP is a man. No woman would say she feels like a "total loser". A divorced female would be on dating sites dating endlessly.

You really think this sounds like a guy?

“I imagined holidays where the kids come home, my spouse and I helping with grandkids, me and my spouse on vacation, our home filled with happiness.”

I definitely think this sounds like a guy. Women express one of two things post-divorce: anxiety over finances, or relief to be out from under the constant stress of an unhappy home (or both). Very, very few women cut and run without trying. Once we're done, we're done.

Really? I know a ton of women who didn't want the divorce and would take their husbands back in a heartbeat. Life isn't better seeing your kids half the time.

This is me. I am so, so sad for me and my kids. If he just showed 1 ounce of regret for his long-time affair and be open to try to save our marriage/family, I would agree and give all my energy to work on it. but he won't. it's devastating.

Who actually filed? Did he stop seeing her?

[Anonymous]

I bought a house.

I visit my kids at college.

They, some years live with me in the summer.

I have great friends and family who I visit often

I’m so busy having fun I can’t obsess over grandchildren that have not been born.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:
Every now and then, there is a post like yours on DCUM. Regrets after divorce, particularly about living alone.

I find it interesting that the disappointed people didn't think this through. Either the marriage is so bad that living alone is a relief, or the marriage is not so bad, and you'd better figure out before you walk whether you're OK with living alone and never finding a companion ever again.

You'll have to power through, OP.

You can be sad that your life didn’t work out as planned and at the same time also know that leaving was necessary. Not everyone leaves for a grass is greener fantasy. A lot of people particularly those leaving an abusive situation didn’t want to divorce or lead a divorced life and just recognized that staying was not an option. There is a lot of grief when you thought you would be living a coupled life and are not (and wouldn’t be if you stayed either).

[Anonymous]

Stick to remembering the moment when you knew you needed divorce. Don't look back. I used to beat myself up for the way it happened, but I had a flashback to when my ex said he wasn't going to work on himself or the relationship at all while I was doing everything I could - individual therapy and couples - and so I know no matter what I did it wouldn't have worked. To stay married I would've had to swallow my needs for the next 45 years (I was 40 at the time).

I'm actually excelling and even though finances are harder and I have my down days - probably about 1/7 - I just focus on the things within my control, see my therapist weekly, learn about personal finance, and do and enjoy the things I never would've gotten to do if I stayed married.

[Anonymous]

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Anonymous wrote:
Every now and then, there is a post like yours on DCUM. Regrets after divorce, particularly about living alone.

I find it interesting that the disappointed people didn't think this through. Either the marriage is so bad that living alone is a relief, or the marriage is not so bad, and you'd better figure out before you walk whether you're OK with living alone and never finding a companion ever again.

You'll have to power through, OP.

You can be sad that your life didn’t work out as planned and at the same time also know that leaving was necessary. Not everyone leaves for a grass is greener fantasy. A lot of people particularly those leaving an abusive situation didn’t want to divorce or lead a divorced life and just recognized that staying was not an option. There is a lot of grief when you thought you would be living a coupled life and are not (and wouldn’t be if you stayed either).

This. OP read Maggie Smith's book You Can Make This Place Beautiful.