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Because I've considered it at least 1,000 times, and every single time I've gotten to a better place - even if temporarily - that makes me glad I'm alive.
It's okay to contemplate it. Life is hard. But, it's not a good solution. To anything, really. Please, if you are thinking of this, hang in there. |
| Because permanent solutions to temporary problems are illogical |
| Op I don’t know what to tell you, but I’m sorry you’re hurting. |
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I'm sorry too.
Like, my heart aches knowing there is someone who is so depressed they are contemplating hurting themselves, and yet the fact is, there are many, many people out there who feel suicidal at any one moment. Check out https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ You can chat with someone if you don't want to call. And full confession: I have done this several times, and I am so incredibly grateful I never hurt myself. |
I hate that that phrase is always getting trotted out. My temporary problems are not temporary. I've had them for 40-ish years. They're not going anywhere. |
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My kids.
My family. I don't believe that God wouldn't take me to be with Him if I did it, but even the remote possibility of that has gotten me through sometimes. I have a few friends who have gotten to some pretty dark places. We have a 24/7 call pact where if you need someone in the middle of the night, or anytime, you call. |
| my children |
| ^^I'm sorry you are feeling this and going through this, OP. I'm listening if you want to tell me more about what's going on and what you are feeling. |
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When I was younger — my mom.
Now — my kids. |
I agree, although I'm sure PP meant well. My problems are not temporary. My problems will never leave me. My problems are part of me. But, when I'm in a bad place and feeling suicidal, I remember that there are good things in life, too, and that if you wait long enough, the bad feelings always pass. My problems will always be there, but how I feel about them will change. |
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I guess because it’s permanent. If I could die for one week I would. I don’t want to “take a break”. I want everything to shut off for one week.
Total brain black out. No heaven, no hell, just black. Like a week long coma. Then see if life is any different in a week. How did people act while I was out? I need a reset. |
| I'm afraid I'll traumatize my daughters. |
| I recognized that escaping is a sign of weakness; staying and fighting is a strength. Also the love of my family. |
| I wish I could support you in real life OP. |