I should make my DH read this thread so he understands why I sometimes exhibit a lot of anxiety around going to the pool with the family or a beach or pool vacation. I work not to feel it, but I know other women are scrutinizing my body and my swimsuit and sometimes I just do not feel emotionally prepared for that.
For me I also just don't love showing a lot of skin. Even pre-kids. I don't judge others for showing skin, in fact I admire how free some people feel with their bodies, but it's not me. For me it's both a comfort thing (I don't like feeling like I'm wearing underwear at the pool, I want to feel more covered up than that) and practical, because I'm pale and burn-prone and the more covered I am the less I have to stress about sunblock.
But I actually feel somewhat liberated in the last 10 years or so because it is no a bit more fashionable to wear a one piece (and there are more flattering and fashionable one pieces available) plus I think there is less pressure to be tan. So I feel less self-conscious now, wearing a more full coverage one piece (I even have one that is rash guard style so it covers my back and arms) and being pale, than I did a couple decades ago when I think that would have really made me stand out in a negative way at the pool.
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