Anonymous wrote:
Anonymous wrote:After being married over 15 years of marriage and having kids, the passion between my spouse and I faded. I began an affair that made me feel young and attractive. The man was still married but he made me feel desirable and sexy. I told my XH that I wanted a divorce after know my AP for a few months. Now I realize that leaving my XH and almost losing my family based on being a cheater, a liar, a phony, selfish, and egotistical was the most imbecile and stupid thing that I could of have ever done in my entire life.
The cost is much too great. The pain that caused to my family was seriously not worth it. The affair was an illusion. I hurt a good man who gave me his life of 15 years and kids. I live each day knowing that I diminished my reputation as a mother in my children's eyes. Think about that for a moment. I made the biggest mistake of my life because I was blinded by the excitement and thrill of having an affair. Children, work, and family responsibilities are what matter in life. My XH and kids are the ones who are my world. As to the AP, he was married as well and his wife left him. A day does not go by of the selfish decision I made.
You are way too hard on yourself.