That would be nice! When I was anesthetized, that time was completely lost to me. I had no sense that I was out or that I had missed anything. |
I had a NDE. It was very peaceful. I went through a light tunnel. I didn't see Jesus. It was peaceful. There was a consciousness there. No clouds or pearly gates. It made me not fear death. |
I really don’t think so many amazingly similar NDEs could be off.
I’m looking forward to it, TBH. |
Well, yeah. But to be fair, I’m not really sure that it was death they found terrifying, so much as being swallowed and spit up by a humpback whale. Which, yeah, couldn’t be anything but terrifying. |
Does not sound crazy to me at all. |
My father died an agonizing death and morphine and fentanyl did not keep him comfortable. It was traumatizing to witness his suffering. When he was given Ativan, we were told that it was to make him less anxious. Nope, it was to subdue him so he’d be an easier patient and we’d think he was peaceful. I deeply regret that he didn’t have an “accidental” overdose before hospice got involved.
I have no idea what death actually feels like, but I used to have periodic episodes of SVT, where my heart would beat anywhere from 190-250 beats per minute, and multiple times I had to go to the ER and have Adenosine administered to interrupt the electrical activity in my heart. The body knows when something suddenly shuts down cardiac activity, even if only for a second. I wasn’t actually dying, so there was no bright light or anything like that, but I felt the physical sensation of life draining out of me, like I was slipping away. It wasn’t painful at all and it wasn’t scary because it was standard treatment and I was closely monitored, but it’s unpleasant psychologically when you’ve done it enough times that you know what you’re about to feel. After two cardiac ablations, I’ve been able to avoid it for the last 4 years. |
After watching my parents die, I'm guessing my death will be like those times when I've been anesthetized; I'll be aware that death is coming soon and then, blink, it's over.
No long fade, no drama. |
It’s sad to hear that, What health issues did he suffer from? |
I think it feels like nothing. You can't experience no consciousness. |
My father had the same issue with Ativan. The hospice nurse said “these drugs play nice together”. But really it was horrible to witness. We also wish there had been an accidental overdose before it came to that. It was horrible to watch. And to watch my mom try to help the 20 hours of the day that the nurse was not with us. |
He had cancer of the bile ducts. It’s not very common, mostly affects elderly men, and often isn’t discovered until they’re already stage 4. It’s aggressive. My dad went to the ER with sudden back pain. He was treated with steroids and pain pills. He was healthy, very physically active, and saw his doctor regularly. When he returned to the ER a week later because the pain was rapidly progressing, they took a scan and told him he had cancer. It had spread from the bile ducts to his entire digestive system and even his lungs at that point. He died 6 weeks later. |
I’m so sorry. Mostly, hospice is very helpful, but I wish they had let us know that he might not be alert enough to carry on a conversation once they gave him the Ativan. It was like it flipped a switch. My mother asked that he not be given another dose and they wore her down. |
Have you been put to sleep for an operation?
I foresee it will be like that except that you don’t wake up later. Then that’s it. Forget about heaven or rejoining lost loved ones. |
That’s my sense of it |
I hope ours is not painful or terrifying like an accident or explosion.
I kind of hope we don't know. If I an aware, I imagine I am sitting on Makaiwa Beach at Mauna Lani, near a palm tree. I look up and the sunlight is dazzling through the fronds.... |