Tell us your deepest secret

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Anonymous wrote:I'm 67, still working because I have to. I ha e no money saved and no retirement plan. I'm so worried about the future and worn out from my job. All I'll have is my SS benefits which I haven't taken so fara.d some equity in my house.

Do you at least enjoy your work? What do you do?

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Anonymous wrote:I sell my worn pantyhose, one of my customers regularly gives briefings in the oval office.

How does that work and how much do you make?

I have a popular Instagram account, it’s just my legs in sheers and high heels. My legs are the only body part I’m proud of, I got into it just for some cheap validation but then it kind of got out of hand. I post once or twice a week, mostly men ask to buy what I’m wearing in the posts. If they are polite and in the US I will wear them for a full day, wrap them up in a Ziploc bag and send them off via FedEx for $50.
Occasionally I’ll mas—bate in them and f they ask.
My best customer could destroy the northern hemisphere is 10 minutes and doesn’t have the sense to use a PO Box or an anonymous source of payment.

I am the OP who asked the original question.

So interesting… I kind of wish I could be as bold and resourceful as you!

It’s easy, make an account on IG and take some pictures, add some hashtags and tomorrow when you wake up you may have a few dozen followers. Watch the background and keep it sterile and no one will know. I’ve been at it for 7 years and review every follower, never had a close call.

How do you manage the payments?

I have an ancient PayPal account that goes to a name and address that are both defunct, my politician uses that one but everyone else is Amazon cards numbers or visa gift card numbers. I know I can be found but the way I see it is the embarrassment factor is really high for all so I’m really not worried.

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A deep secret? Throughout my undergraduate years at a Big 10 school I struck up numerous sexual relationships with professors and higher level faculty. I’m a guy and these were all older women - quite a number of them were married.

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Anonymous wrote:1. I don't understand anything I do at work. I've had the same job for 28 years, and wonder if the other people who do this understand it but can't figure out a way to ask them without giving away that I don't.

2. Also, if I get too sick or whatever to work before I die, I will be homeless in about 6-8 years after stopping work. If this happens, I will end my life.

3. Speaking of 2, I fully believe in suicide. If someone doesn't want to live, they shouldn't have to. Not all problems are temporary, and I don't think someone should live miserably so other people won't be sad (never mind that not everyone has people who would be sad if they were dead).

My only exception to thinking this is parents - they should live miserably until their kids are at least 24-25, then they can end it. I've known a few people whose parents killed themselves when they (the people I have known) were children, and it really messed them all up deeply.

I've had this stance since I was about 12, and have never wavered.

I think about suicide a lot. I have two kids with special needs, and a marriage where we've grown to resent our lives and each other. But my health prevents me from getting a big enough insurance policy to care for them if I die.

But whether it is done naturally or intentionally, I will evenctually die, and my children still won't be able to care for themselves. There isn't really a good option.

I'm so sorry, PP. You don't have to feel like this. I know you think it will be this awful forever, but that's the depression talking. It's lying. It WILL get better. Please call 988 when you have a moment. There IS relief for you. I promise. I promise.
signed, someone who has suffered from depression and has a SN kid

I appreciate the sentiment. And while I'm sure there's an element of depression, I really think that's it. I've been through that, along with therapy and meds. I don't feel depressed. Sad at times, yes. Mad and resentful, sometimes. Mostly tired.

It's not that normal things that would make other people happy don't make me happy. It's just that my life doesn't contain those things. It's just work, fighting with the school, physically forcing basic executive functions on my child, shuttling between doctors and therapy appointments. Every day.

And it won't get better because that's the reality. People will bring up things like respite care, but, as a parent of a child with special needs, you probably know how limited that is. Given the lead-up effort to arrange it, and dealing with any fallout that occurs, you're lucky if it's a net help at all. Certainly not enough to make life enjoyable.

In some cases, rationally the negative aspects of life dwarf the positives. And that isn't going to change for some people.

I’ve been suicidal ever since I can remember. I say to myself that next year is going to be the year, but something interesting happens, that I’m always pulled out of it. I’m a nurse in a psych ward where everyone comes in suicidal but they are too chicken to do it. Nobody wants these people, they’ve burned bridges and they do not or cannot contribute to society. I promised myself I’ll end it too because I don’t want to end up like these people who are just all talk.

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I hate my life and want out. But a doctor told me that the absolute worst think you can do to your children is to kill yourself. Every day seems worse than the last but I i am all smiles to my friends. I had a great few hours yesterday in nature and I dreamed of just disappearing.

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Anonymous wrote:I hate my life and want out. But a doctor told me that the absolute worst think you can do to your children is to kill yourself. Every day seems worse than the last but I i am all smiles to my friends. I had a great few hours yesterday in nature and I dreamed of just disappearing.

This is pretty much me as well. I’m just tired a so tired.

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Anonymous wrote:I'm 67, still working because I have to. I ha e no money saved and no retirement plan. I'm so worried about the future and worn out from my job. All I'll have is my SS benefits which I haven't taken so fara.d some equity in my house.

How does this happen? I made below minimum at times and still retired in mid 40s. When I got paid few bucks above minimum wage at 35+, I was on my way to financial freedom. I was very sensitive to the $5-$6 hourly increase. Didn't go shopping, but invested it. Kept my life as it was.
I know several places to live where $830 I would get at 62, would be quite enough. And 62 is young enough to work part time.
I have always wondered what people did with their money. I understand emergencies and health problems, but people are broke even without the two.

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Anonymous wrote:I hate my life and want out. But a doctor told me that the absolute worst think you can do to your children is to kill yourself. Every day seems worse than the last but I i am all smiles to my friends. I had a great few hours yesterday in nature and I dreamed of just disappearing.

This is pretty much me as well. I’m just tired a so tired.

Do you also dream about how to make it an accident?

But I need an accident that is 100% and with minimal pain.

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Anonymous wrote:I'm 67, still working because I have to. I ha e no money saved and no retirement plan. I'm so worried about the future and worn out from my job. All I'll have is my SS benefits which I haven't taken so fara.d some equity in my house.

How does this happen? I made below minimum at times and still retired in mid 40s. When I got paid few bucks above minimum wage at 35+, I was on my way to financial freedom. I was very sensitive to the $5-$6 hourly increase. Didn't go shopping, but invested it. Kept my life as it was.
I know several places to live where $830 I would get at 62, would be quite enough. And 62 is young enough to work part time.
I have always wondered what people did with their money. I understand emergencies and health problems, but people are broke even without the two.

Go find some empathy or go away.

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I want to know the leg workout of the pantyhose poster! Beautiful legs are my dream but I’m 5’2” and didn’t get long gorgeous legs…any tips PH poster? Standard squats/calf lifts/etc.?

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Anonymous wrote:I sell my worn pantyhose, one of my customers regularly gives briefings in the oval office.

How does that work and how much do you make?

I have a popular Instagram account, it’s just my legs in sheers and high heels. My legs are the only body part I’m proud of, I got into it just for some cheap validation but then it kind of got out of hand. I post once or twice a week, mostly men ask to buy what I’m wearing in the posts. If they are polite and in the US I will wear them for a full day, wrap them up in a Ziploc bag and send them off via FedEx for $50.
Occasionally I’ll mas—bate in them and f they ask.
My best customer could destroy the northern hemisphere is 10 minutes and doesn’t have the sense to use a PO Box or an anonymous source of payment.

You sell worn panthose unwashed w your crotch sauce?

Ick!

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Anonymous wrote:I sell my worn pantyhose, one of my customers regularly gives briefings in the oval office.

How does that work and how much do you make?

I have a popular Instagram account, it’s just my legs in sheers and high heels. My legs are the only body part I’m proud of, I got into it just for some cheap validation but then it kind of got out of hand. I post once or twice a week, mostly men ask to buy what I’m wearing in the posts. If they are polite and in the US I will wear them for a full day, wrap them up in a Ziploc bag and send them off via FedEx for $50.
Occasionally I’ll mas—bate in them and f they ask.
My best customer could destroy the northern hemisphere is 10 minutes and doesn’t have the sense to use a PO Box or an anonymous source of payment.

You sell worn panthose unwashed w your crotch sauce?

Ick!

That's the point, genius!

[Anonymous]

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Anonymous wrote:I'm 67, still working because I have to. I ha e no money saved and no retirement plan. I'm so worried about the future and worn out from my job. All I'll have is my SS benefits which I haven't taken so fara.d some equity in my house.

How does this happen? I made below minimum at times and still retired in mid 40s. When I got paid few bucks above minimum wage at 35+, I was on my way to financial freedom. I was very sensitive to the $5-$6 hourly increase. Didn't go shopping, but invested it. Kept my life as it was.
I know several places to live where $830 I would get at 62, would be quite enough. And 62 is young enough to work part time.
I have always wondered what people did with their money. I understand emergencies and health problems, but people are broke even without the two.

Not helpful and probably not true

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:I hate my life and want out. But a doctor told me that the absolute worst think you can do to your children is to kill yourself. Every day seems worse than the last but I i am all smiles to my friends. I had a great few hours yesterday in nature and I dreamed of just disappearing.

That's the sort of thinking that leads to the murder-suicide cases.

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For those of you considering onlyfans, selling worn pantyhose etc; please don’t do it. Money may be good but it’s a soul sucking work. Its a type of prostitution. Terrible for your spirituality.