My DH thinks I still want to be in this marriage for all of our sakes. The truth is that I know he will fight tooth and nail for joint custody (actually I am sure he will even ask for primary! that's just the type of belligerent guy he is!) despite only doing 5% of the childcare. And of course, if he's not a alcoholic or a convicted felon or physically abusive, he will likely get it, given our laws today, even if the kids are way more bonded to me. So I stay, because I think he will totally screw up the kids if he's left in charge of them 3.5 days out of 7. And because (unfortunately? fortunately?) our friends include no divorced/single parents so it would totally freak out our kids.
But I'm good at putting on a nice face. |
What?! Sounds like you did and still do. |
It is deleted now. Too bad, it sounded really interesting. Hope the OP is doing ok. |
I never said we were married. SO is for significant other. To the other pp: I did check myself into the hospital. I've been more than once in the past year. I'm trying really hard to get better. I feel better than I did when. I started that thread I didn't remember a lot of specific things I wrote and was shocked by a lot of it. I told married boyfriend if he wanted to be with me to get a divorce, he did. We talk all the time, but we're are on a hiatus while I get my mental health together ( my choice ) I am not well. |
You never completely fall out of love with someone. |
That's awful- you have issues! |
That I had multiple job offers from a USG intelligence agencies but said no to avoid massive lifestyle changes... |
Pp why do they have issues if never fallen completely out of love? I still hope for the best for my exes |
But you don't live them. |
Meant love them. |
Not loving the one you're with and thinking of - (let's face it) fiction - is weird and kind of stunted. That person isn't that person anymore and neither are you, they've gone on to another (hopefully) rich life, you are idolizing your old life (there's a reason it 'didn't work out' and you are forgetting those reasons) and healthy people wouldn't for a minute trade their self now for their 20 something year old self. Maybe it means you need to step up your life some so that it has more meaning and purpose? |
How many men I slept with. How much coke I did and that i had an abortion. |
Honey, is that you? |
The fact that I'm constantly trying to figure out how much I'd get in a divorce settlement. |
That I want to fu$k every day. |