Thank you for all of your post. I have found the most comfort in reading that many other woman have experienced this before, even though I feel for each one of them. Its so much easier hearing that I'm not alone with all these questions that go unanswered. Also that many woman go on to have a perfect pregnancy after m/c. I have an appointment with my Dr. but they didn't get me in until the 13th of Aug. I think that seem so far away to just let me go till then. I am still bleeding, however now it is the flow of a period so am now on a full period or is this still the m/c? So many questions and no one to really ask.
Once again TY you to all of you who have posted you will never know how much this is helping me.
I have accepted that I am in deed having a miscarriage. I have been trying to just relax and let everything happen. But there are all these unanswered questions that more than likely will never have answers. So I am looking towards the future. I want to TTC soon as I feel if I wait much longer then there could be more complications. I have two beautiful daughters that are 10, and 7. Could it be that my body had not been pregnant in so long that it wasn't prepared? Whats the likely hood that I will M/C if I have had to previous simple easy pregnancies? Grrr this is so frustrating.
I began TTC on July 8th and 9th. It was two of my fertile days. I being in a lesbian relationship had to plan it perfectly for the donar. I waited till my period was due to be here before I became excited. Even though I had the common symptoms for me a sinus infection and a cold sore not pretty but its how my body jives. I took my first test and it was positive but very faint line. Waited for 4 days then tested again positive but darker. Called the dr for a blood draw just to be sure and my Hcg came back 672. That same day I started spotting, the blood was only there when I would wipe but never touched the pad. There was no pain at all, I called the dr and he did a pelvic and said there was no tissue visible and my cervix is closed. He called it a threatened M/C. Said if I the bleeding got worse or I started shedding tissue to go to the er. Wed. I had dropped a blood clot not big but a clot and being that I am so nervous I went to the Er. I was told again that my cervix is closed and that there is no sign of tissue. The U/S tech said that I was only 5 weeks and that she is sure that nothing would show on the U/s as their equipment only starts to show at 5w 5 days. So she was not worried when she saw no sac or baby. Waited around for blood work that seemed to take forever when the dr finally came back she told me that I was miscarrying that the results show my Hgc was 74 now. But still no pain, no cramps not anything. I still have preg symptoms peeing lots, sore breast and dreams of course. I want to believe that it truly is a miscarriage but my brain says that something is not right. Is there any possible way that the test was mis read or wrong? Can I want this baby so bad that I just believe what I want to believe? Its been 3 days since they said I M/c the bleeding/spotting is still the same not getting on a pad just when i wipe and maybe sometimes drip in toilet while i pee, still no pain. Can anyone tell me if they have ever dealt with this or had the same situation. Its making me crazy its hard to deal with a M/C when your so conflicted.
Sorry for going on and on I just need to talk to someone outside my world.