Why don't more people kill themselves?

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:Thank you for all the thoughtful responses. Honestly though, 22:00, 14:58, and 16:02 - not helpful. It's hard to understand why any of you would write that to someone having suicidal thoughts. Even on a board full of snarkiness.

I am feeling a little better today and have been researching a couple different therapists, looking at their websites, and will pick one this week and make an appointment. I've been putting it off too long. I do not feel suicidal today and it's scary to me that I was thinking that way last night.

OP, thank you for posting again! I'm so glad that you contacted a therapist. Making that call and going may be hard for you to follow through on, but please do it. I was very anti-pharmaceuticals but went on them, and feel completely differently about my problems and life than I did before. And I don't feel "medicated" just more like my old regular self. Please do seek treatment. With best wishes to you and your family.

[Anonymous]

Because those whining kids and unloving husband would miss you and be emotionally scarred for life. Don't do it, and please get some help. There's no shame at all in that.

[Anonymous]

When I was 16 my best friend got in a fight with her parents, because they wouldn't let her borrow the car. She called all of us in her circle and said she hated her parents, blah blah. After she talked to her friends, she went down to the basement and hung herself.

She was beautiful, funny, and smart. I wonder what she would be like as an adult. There is another way, OP. Please think of everyone who loves you and will miss you forever. You are special and loved, and to your little boy you are his everything.

Thinking of you, and so glad you're going for help.

[Anonymous]

OP,

Sometimes I wonder the same thing. But there must be some good reason, right? Procrastination?

[Anonymous]

OP, one day at a time. That's how I get by. Overworked, exhausted and DH brings in very little money. Don't know how we get by every month, let alone how we'll pay for college. I feel like it will never end. I'm taking antidepressants and get by one day at a time. Sending love and support your way.

[Anonymous]

OP, please keep us posted on your progress. This is your thread, so I don't want to waylay it , but just so you know you are not alone, I also have brief moments when I wonder "what's the point of it all?" And this may be TMI, but I have thought that if I ever did end things, I would take my children with me , because it can be a cold, cruel world and I would not want them to face it alone.
Last year, a woman in my county killed herself and her special needs son--apparently she had financial problems and could not face it. It was SO SAD to read her story.

As I said, my thoughts are very fleeting, but who knows, maybe I would benefit from therapy/meds as well.

OP, we are here to support you, I am glad you are doing research. You are a precious human being and deserve to feel so much better.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:OP, please keep us posted on your progress. This is your thread, so I don't want to waylay it , but just so you know you are not alone, I also have brief moments when I wonder "what's the point of it all?" And this may be TMI, but I have thought that if I ever did end things, I would take my children with me , because it can be a cold, cruel world and I would not want them to face it alone.Last year, a woman in my county killed herself and her special needs son--apparently she had financial problems and could not face it. It was SO SAD to read her story.

As I said, my thoughts are very fleeting, but who knows, maybe I would benefit from therapy/meds as well.

OP, we are here to support you, I am glad you are doing research. You are a precious human being and deserve to feel so much better.

I really don't want to hijack OP's post at all, but this honestly concerns me a little bit. I sincerely hope that you find a way to work through these feelings.. This will devastate your children's father, and everyone who's grown to love them AND YOU definitely.. You don't know what wonderful things your children are destined to do in this world yet, and they AND YOU deserve to live to be there!

OP, I'm glad to hear that you're feeling a little better, and that you're taking the steps necessary to solve this completely temporary problem. I have been praying for you since I read your post.

[Anonymous]

Thinking about you OP. It will get better. Do fun things with your DC. Ignore the whining.

I am not prone to depression but have anxiety. This morning, 20 minutes to daycare one or other twin was whining very loudly. It's tough.

[Anonymous]

I am still here, btw. I never did make that appointment but I started jogging and it has done wonders for my mood. As well as making little projects for myself at home, to keep me busy and feel successful at something.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:Because things can and do get better. Maybe not tomorrow, but they will. Hang in there. Some day you will look back and be glad you didn't do it yourself. Please talk to someone you trust if you need to. Hugs.

You don't know what is on the other side and, at least, on this side there is always hope. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Find some help fast.

[Anonymous]

Put some happy music on. That always lifts my mood.

[Anonymous]

OP, good for you. Exercise always helps. Keep hanging in there. Your child might drive you batty with the whining and your husband might prefer watching tv to spending time with you (mine does, too), but you surely would never deliberately ruin someone's life and suicide has ramifications well beyond those to your child, husband, and family. You could never fully envision the fall out and it's wrong to wreck other people. So keep keeping on.

[Anonymous]

OP, I have struggled with depression my whole life, and I am so sorry for your pain. Exercise and small accomplishments definitely help (sometimes it is as small as my kitchen sink!), as well as the simple daily dose of iron and vitamin B.

But the thing that turned me back from the brink was forgiveness. I had a moment of understanding that I was a unique person, my own self, like no one who has ever lived or ever will live. And the love my Creator had for me was a million billion trillion times more profound than the love I have for my children...infinite love. And no matter how far I fell, no matter how bad I had been, that love was constant, just like none of my babies could ever lose my love, only infinitely so.

You are so loved. No one could take your place in the tapestry of creation. You need to ask your Creator to help you live the life He meant for you...the graces you need are there.

I am thinking of you tonight.

[Anonymous]

Suicide doesn't end the suffering, it just transfers it to those around you.

The feeling that no one really cares about you or that you want to push people away - that is the depression talking. So glad OP you are seeking out help. Emotional pain can be excruciating - we would seek help if in excruciating physical pain - no reason not to do the same for emotional pain.