My mother is my sister

[Anonymous]

I think you should tell your husband and see a genetic counselor as well. This could have ramifications on your and your future children's health- or it might not. But its knowledge you should have.

[Anonymous]

I just wanted to update this thread. I ended up talking to my husband a few days ago. He is my best friend, and I needed to be comforted. I thought I was dealing with it, but the night I found out my husband tried to be intimate with me, and I pulled away. I started feeling disgusted with myself. I know I didn't do anything, and it's strange, but I felt disgusted with myself. A few days after he asked what was going on, because I didn't want him touching me at all. I told him, and I feel stupid for even worrying. He was/is incredibly supportive. He said he doesn't see me differently, and he's always here if I just want to vent, or cry.

I'm going to try to find a reasonably priced therapist, because I don't have insurance. Thank you everyone for your warm, supportive thoughts, and respionses.

[Anonymous]

Thanks for the update, OP. So glad to hear that your husband was everything you needed him to be!

Peace.

[Anonymous]

Op here.
My mom recently discovered fb and reconnected with her good hs friend. They exchanged numbers and started catching up. The woman told my mom after all these years, I still think about you, and I've prayed for you. The woman apologized to my mother. My mom said why?
She said "remember when you were pregnant your dad came in and beat the shit out of you? I'm sorry I didn't call the cops. But since he was a cop and his friends were detectives, etc I was afraid." My mom had no clue what she was talking about.
The woman remembered it like it was yesterday he punched her in the stomach and kicked her in the stomach repeatedly, and yelled that she had been with other men. She said she remember how selfish my grandmother was, and she did nothing to help my mom. She once said my mom must have liked it, because she didn't tell. My mom said that she was afraid because of all the people he knew, and he was " the law".

My mom said when the last line about him yelling at her was said she had a flashback, and was flooded with memories she apparently blocked out.
My mom is seeing someone for all of this.

I always felt like my grandparents loved me so much it just hurts to know how far my grandfather/ dad went to try to kill me. My grandmother has been my best friend, since as far back as I remember.

Is it possible for me to have relationship with them? I feel like my whole life has been a lie! Nothing is what I thought it was. I feel like I'm going to have an emotional breakdown.

[Anonymous]

OP, you're going to make it. I swear to God you are. And I am too, although I don't feel right now like I know how or why, necessarily. I've had something similar going on lately, not nearly as traumatic as yours, but out of nowhere a trigger that caused me to remember lots and lots of ugly, nasty stuff in my family that I can't even talk about. Or write about. Or, apparently, even think about -- I had a session with my therapist a few weeks ago where I just stared at her speechlessly because I couldn't talk, and she tried to help me find some words to even start. Honey, I don't know how or why or when stuff like this gets resolves, but my therapist promises me that it does: we aren't the first, you and I, we won't be the last, and there is a way through. Don't you give up and I won't either. Our past does not have to predict the future. There's a better life ahead. Just because we can't see it doesn't mean it doesn't exist.

[Anonymous]

Thanks pp, that made me cry.

[Anonymous]

OP most state's victim's assistance programs reimburse medical or therapy costs if you report the crime. As PPs have said, you'd need to go to a geneticist first for more info.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:Thanks pp, that made me cry.

NP here. It made me cry too. I don't have anything else to add but Gods all bless the both of you and you'll be in my prayers.