Feeling old, overwhelmed, sad, and frustrated...

[Anonymous]

Hi OP - I am so sorry for what you are going through, and I can understand how you're feeling. I am 35, have a 13-month-old, and another one on the way. I work full-time, too, and DH travels all the time for weeks at a time. None of my family live close by (they are Midwest), and I recently found out that a close family member is terminally ill, as well as my dog who I've had for 12 years (before the husband, baby, etc. She was my baby and best friend). It's not easy at all. Between having to do daycare drop-off and pick-up, working full-time at a high pressure job, then entertaining a toddler who won't sleep, comforting my family members who are scared about the illness, and the shuttling my poor old dog back and forth to the vet for chemo treatments and cleaning up after her when the chemo makes her sick....all while DH is at some week-long conference getting wined and dined, at a nice hotel, without having to worry about what he is eating that night for dinner, or whether he will get any sleep because of the baby/dog/stress, makes me so upset, angry, and resentful. I, like you, feel old, tired, ugly, and just depressed. This isn't what I signed up for, you know?

So, when i start feeling this way, I try really REALLY hard to think of the blessings I do have. I have a gorgeous child who I love more than anything. I have another baby on the way to love. I have a poor old dog who has loved me unconditionally for 12 years. I just try to do the best by them.

My house is a disaster, even worse now with the sick dog. I find what we wear every day in the piles of clean clothes around the house. I have cleaning people that come once a week, but I don't know how they can clean with clutter everywhere.

basically, I just do the best I can. I definitely feel for you, and can relate 100% to how overwhelming things can be. I've found myself having crazy dreams at night (when i actually sleep!) about old boyfriends and crushes, from when I was in my early 20s, wondering if my life would have been different. Then, I wake up, and realize that this is what I have to deal with.

You aren't alone....I wish I could take you out for a nice glass of wine!

[Anonymous]

What you wrote (Anonymous) reminded me of how I felt 8 years ago. I was home with my twin baby girls, dying dog (of 14 years), husband working long hours and running his own business.

Today I am a successful Life Coach and "Happiness Expert"-- I wrote an article in September-- The "P" Word (my spin on procrastination) that talks about my piles of clean clothes. You might like it. http://funtobeme.wordpress.com/2009/09/



Jackie Wall-Mielcarski
Fun To Be Me, Inc.