I am never satisfied

[Anonymous]

Thank you for trusting us DCUM ers with your burden of childhood sexual abuse. I am praying for you and sending you hugs. You should find a therapist to help
You work through this.

[Anonymous]

Wanna trade? My life would be a great fixer-upper for you.

[Anonymous]

As my father who recently passed away used to say, "these are the good old days". The goal is to be in the moment and recognize that.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:OP here, I'm really not trying to sound like a jerk. This is a sincere request for help. I appreciate the responses, particularly on therapy and meditation. These are good ideas and things I think I could benefit from. I don't think of myself as avoiding something else or being manic but maybe I am. I was sexually abused as a child by a family member and I mostly avoid this overall. DCUM is one of the only places I have ever revealed it actually other than to DH.

As for as helping others I do actually volunteer a fair amount and dedicate quite a bit of time to a nonprofit board I am on along with more hands on volunteer work. Just trying to show I am really not a huge jerk, I just don't ever seem to feel satisfied.

Here is a question for you and it relates to receiving not giving. Do you feel love emotionally or is it a mental connection?

[Anonymous]

Sounds like you never really discovered yourself. You've done "all the right things" down to 2.5 kids and the picket fence. Stop living the template and figure out what you really want out of life. All the goal-pursing for the sake of Mom and Dad was so you wouldn't be a bum. Now time to do you.

[Anonymous]

I like the second language recommendation.