I'm so sad and lonely

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:If you think he is an alcoholic, I suggest trying Al-Anon.

Thanks. I probably should. The signs are there. It may be the worst thing I could ever have envisioned for my life. My dad was an alcoholic and I swore I'd never marry an addict or have a child with one. I don't know how I could have let this happen. I can't retreat into depression and despair since I need to be present for my baby, but boy is it tempting. I spent a lot of time in ACA dealing with my childhood. The idea of ending up in AL Anon may be the biggest failure of my life. My poor baby.

(I need to step away from here now. It's all too depressing. I've got my baby in my arms and I'm gonna try to just smell baby smell, feel baby skin, and treasure this moment rather than gazing on the wreckage of my relationship.)

Hi OP, just wanted to offer my empathy. I could have written your post. I swore I'd never marry an alcoholic, and somehow I did. Things did not end well for the marriage, but my child and I are doing well now. I hope for a happier marital outcome for you, it's certainly possible because every situation is different.