Anonymous wrote:Actually, when I think back I realize *I* was meaner and he was more disgusted (for lack of a better word) at how I acted. It's very weird...it's almost like I was mad at him for the affair even when I didn't even know about it.

Anonymous wrote:Yes, he was totally mean and disconnected. To justify what he was doing he had to make me the bad guy. Also, affairs are training your brain to get instant gratification - instead of working on your issues or facing issues in your marriage (which are connected to your issues)you just fulfill needs another way. So it makes sense you are inpatient and frustrated when you aren't getting what you want. Our therapist pointed this out and it made a lot of sense.

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Anonymous wrote:Actually, when I think back I realize *I* was meaner and he was more disgusted (for lack of a better word) at how I acted. It's very weird...it's almost like I was mad at him for the affair even when I didn't even know about it.

He was disgusted with himself or with you?

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Anonymous wrote:Yes, he was totally mean and disconnected. To justify what he was doing he had to make me the bad guy. Also, affairs are training your brain to get instant gratification - instead of working on your issues or facing issues in your marriage (which are connected to your issues)you just fulfill needs another way. So it makes sense you are inpatient and frustrated when you aren't getting what you want. Our therapist pointed this out and it made a lot of sense.

How long did you go to counseling? Any suggestions if spouse is not interested or willing to go to counseling?

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Anonymous wrote:Actually, when I think back I realize *I* was meaner and he was more disgusted (for lack of a better word) at how I acted. It's very weird...it's almost like I was mad at him for the affair even when I didn't even know about it.

He was disgusted with himself or with you?

With me. Which I don't ever remembering pre affair and he doesn't do post affair. But it's like he was easily irritated if I nagged/fussed/etc and made excuses to leave the house for some air, space, etc.

Anonymous wrote:In my case, ex had to run me down to "justify" what he did. It's pretty common I think. He seemed angry and easily frustrated with me and the kids, wanted to get away from us to be with OW in their fantasy world.

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Anonymous wrote:Actually, when I think back I realize *I* was meaner and he was more disgusted (for lack of a better word) at how I acted. It's very weird...it's almost like I was mad at him for the affair even when I didn't even know about it.

He was disgusted with himself or with you?

With me. Which I don't ever remembering pre affair and he doesn't do post affair. But it's like he was easily irritated if I nagged/fussed/etc and made excuses to leave the house for some air, space, etc.

OP. I've read some of the IM chats with his "girlfriend". He tells her that he is annoyed with me not for anything I do specifically - he's just annoyed and irritated with me for being.

Anonymous wrote:For those who have survived infidelity (physical or emotional), did your spouse get meaner and more callous to you? He's been having this affair for almost a year. I had a dream that he was nice and caring to me, something I haven't felt from him for a long time.