I am so so so sorry to be reading this! You are not alone!

I would definitely consider the resources above.

I wish I could hug you right now. I think staying here is your best option but get out of the house. And verbal/nonverbal abuse is as real as physical abuse. I am glad you recognize it for your and your children's sake.

Lots of love to you and your children.

I am small (short and slender)so I don't need him to be particularly tall or strong to be able to save me from a burning building or throw me on a bed and I don't seem to share that interest that I have seen posted about by fellow petite women who want to fixing their gene pool for future children since I don't think height is a defect haha.

I like men who are confident in what they are carrying whether it be a swimmers physique or someone who has gained since college from putting in too much time at the office and not enough time at the gym. I think confidence is the key with whatever body type.

Do I sound like I have low standards? I don't. They are high. I just don't have clearly defined physical definitions.