What kind of treatment/therapy for immense trauma?

[Anonymous]

OP, have you considered that there may be no way to actually "forgive and forget" or heal from your childhood trauma?

Therapists and counselors aren't going to tell you that.

I also think "talking" it out makes it worse for me.

Here are some strategies that seem to help, for me and for others:

1. Take one day at a time. Live in the moment. Live in the present.
2. Refocus your thoughts or mind whenever a negative thought surfaces.
3. Try not to force yourself to be a Pollyanna and think positively and smile all the time.
4. Grieve when you want to grieve. Sometimes a good cry helps.
5. Be physically active. Take a walk. Work out. Exercise.
6. Get a dog. A dog provides unconditional love. You're humbled by picking up dog poop 2x a day outside for walks.

I'm not trivializing your childhood trauma. I'm just suggesting that you're drawing the conclusion yourself that therapy is not helping you. You're not alone in that conclusion.