I just can't get excited or even positive yet

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:OP here. I'm beginning to wonder if the universe is telling us that we weren't meant to be parents.


I know that ICSI works well for lots of people but the rescue ICSI has lower pregnancy rates. If we do another fresh cycle we will definitely do ICSI. On the positive side, if we want to do another cycle immediately, my new insurance will cover us. We were going to have to wait for the 2 years of trying. I got pregnant in May of 2008 with an anencephalic pregnancy. I think I need a break though.

My husband will have to undergo testing. It makes me wonder how I got pregnant the first time. All this time we were thinking that it was my age when there could have been some undiagnosed sperm issue. At this point we have no idea.

Please don't think the universe is telling you you were not meant to be parents. Your path to parenthood might be different, but if you want to be parents, you will be and you'll be great parents.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:OP here. I'm beginning to wonder if the universe is telling us that we weren't meant to be parents.


I know that ICSI works well for lots of people but the rescue ICSI has lower pregnancy rates. If we do another fresh cycle we will definitely do ICSI. On the positive side, if we want to do another cycle immediately, my new insurance will cover us. We were going to have to wait for the 2 years of trying. I got pregnant in May of 2008 with an anencephalic pregnancy. I think I need a break though.

My husband will have to undergo testing. It makes me wonder how I got pregnant the first time. All this time we were thinking that it was my age when there could have been some undiagnosed sperm issue. At this point we have no idea.

Please don't think the universe is telling you you were not meant to be parents. Your path to parenthood might be different, but if you want to be parents, you will be and you'll be great parents.

I have to second this. If you want to be a mom, one way or another, you will be one.

[Anonymous]

I had your exact experience. We had 10 eggs and none fertilized! We were shocked as it was something we had never even considered! There were no sperm problems etc. We did the rescue I ICSI too but please don't get your hopes up with it. It has a VERY low success rate and our RE told us not to expect anything from it. The good news it now you know what it wrong. They did ICSI on our next cycle and we got pregnant. It is a very easily corrected problem now that you know what it is.

[Anonymous]

OP here. I got word this afternoon that we are on for the transfer tomorrow morning. I must say that although I know that the rescue ICSI has much lower pregnancy rates, I am thrilled that this is not a completely wasted cycle.

This week has been such a roller coaster.

[Anonymous]

Oh I'm so happy for you! I have been following this and hoping that you'd get to "go" this cycle. Best of luck to you.

[Anonymous]

OP here. We did the tranfer but I got the negative beta today. I knew that it was going to be negative going in there. As I mentioned, I've been pregnant before, I know what it feels like.

Anyway, it looks like we will go into another round of IVF beginning with this period. I still need to talk to the doctor, but I'm sure that is what he is going to recommend. My husband and I decided that we were going to go forward too.

I'm sad, but this wasn't unexpected so this time we'll know what to do. I don't know if my husband will need to get more tests or not.

I'm feeling pretty discouraged. I'm 41 and feel like time is running out. I never thought it would be this way and I'm sure my negative attitude/general stress level doesn't help. In addition, I've been told that hard-core cardio negatively affects ovaries so I gave up my boot/camp/running routine and really miss it. (from my acupuncturist) I'm also the only person in the world who finds yoga irritating, not stress relieving. I was going to give it another shot tomorrow at Stroga in AM. The class is free until the end of the month, so I figured I would give it a shot. I'm hoping I find some class that I like.

Does anyone have any words of wisdom?

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:OP here. We did the tranfer but I got the negative beta today. I knew that it was going to be negative going in there. As I mentioned, I've been pregnant before, I know what it feels like.

Anyway, it looks like we will go into another round of IVF beginning with this period. I still need to talk to the doctor, but I'm sure that is what he is going to recommend. My husband and I decided that we were going to go forward too.

I'm sad, but this wasn't unexpected so this time we'll know what to do. I don't know if my husband will need to get more tests or not.

I'm feeling pretty discouraged. I'm 41 and feel like time is running out. I never thought it would be this way and I'm sure my negative attitude/general stress level doesn't help. In addition, I've been told that hard-core cardio negatively affects ovaries so I gave up my boot/camp/running routine and really miss it. (from my acupuncturist) I'm also the only person in the world who finds yoga irritating, not stress relieving. I was going to give it another shot tomorrow at Stroga in AM. The class is free until the end of the month, so I figured I would give it a shot. I'm hoping I find some class that I like.

Does anyone have any words of wisdom?

Hey OP - I just had my bad news show up today so you aren't the only one in a bad mood. I had my 1st when I was just shy of 40. Took 3 IUI's. Just started trying for #2 and decided to try naturally since my insurance coverage is poor. Period was very late, which is usually the norm for me, but it has been on time the last few cycles so I had a glimmer of hope. Convinced myself to feel nausea and stomach flutters. didn't even drink when we were cooped up in the house during the snow storm. Hope shattered today and meeting with my old RE on Friday.

Anyway - it sounds like you do acupuncture? I think that really tipped the scales in my favor. I also did not drink at all for the 1.5 years it took for me to conceive #1. I undestand your frustration and I had the same feelings before and I am getting them again. All I can say is keep trying - don't give up. At 41, you are on the cusp and your RE would have told you if you have no shot at all. Sounds like that isn't the case. Eat healthy, try not to eat a lot of sugar, and do light exercise. Keep up the acupuncture. Trust your gut when it comes to your treatment. Keep us in the loop and I'll post back too.

[Anonymous]

I'm so sorry.

I'm not sure if this helps any but I can attest that a negative attitude does not prevent success. My last IVF I had completely convinced myself that things did not work and they did. Like you I was beaten down by 6 IUIs, 2 other failed IVFs, 2 chemical pregnancies, and one miscarriage at 12 weeks.

I was age 39 when I was going through all this. I did no yoga or accupunture or anything. The only thing I did was the ole pineapple trick after transfer.

It sounds like you are responding to the meds well. Hopefully if they just do ICSI of the bat it will do the trick. In the meantime just try to hang in there. So sorry you are going through this.

[Anonymous]

OP-please don't despair. I too went through very hard times when we were TTC-I m/c at 12 weeks, to find out later the baby had down syndrome. I was 41 and thought I would never have a baby. I had yet another m/c, and then I got pregnant again with my son, who is now 3, and by then I was almost 43. I know the feelings you're having but the fact that you got pregnant is wonderful.

[Anonymous]

OP here. Thanks for your kind words. PP 21:02 can you tell me more about the pineapple? I was eating it too, but I don't know how much I'm supposed to be eating. What time of day, empty stomach or with a meal?

I'm still feeling discouraged. I see an acupuncturist, Kerri Westhauser. I was seeing a different acupuncturist when I got pregnant (the old fashioned way) Part of me wonders if I should go back to the old one. She didn't specialize in fertility and I also got pg right after an HSG, so who knows what did the trick. Kerri specializes in fertility and arranges her schedule around your IVF procedures.

I feel like I've given up/restricted everything. I gave up my hard core boot camp. I've given up my one cup of coffee per day. I haven't completely given up alcohol but I'm not a big drinker. I'll have a glass of wine here and there, but never when I'm cycling. Sometimes I feel like I should just say f*&^ it and do what I want, maybe I'd be more relaxed, but I know I won't do that.

My FSH, LH and estrogen were really good until about 4 months ago. Even with that my FSH is still under 8 and my estrogen is in the 60's. LH was the biggie last cycle. It was 1. Even with all that I responded to the drugs and got 5 good eggs. It was my husband this time. My RE is not pushing me towards donor eggs or even being anything but positive. The nurse told me yesterday that women older than me and with poorer responses have gotten pregnant.

I'm down but still trying to be hopeful. I also wish my period would start. My mood is always the worst right before I start. Thanks for listening. (reading)