I'm a horrible person. What is WRONG with me??

[Anonymous]

I had this happen to two friends while we were doing our eventual ride to IVF - both are now on their own with their children. I do not envy them - they are tied forever to men that they did not necessarily want as a partner. They are stuck with guys that really both ended up being kind of selfish jerk-offs. My MIL always says "If you threw everyone's troubles in a big pile...you'd reach right in there and grab yours back..they aren't so bad." Go home and love your baby and your partner...Your pals road is likely going to be rougher than you know.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:You aren't horrible, you're human. When I find myself in a place like you are right now, I try to remember the Desiderata:

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

This is beautiful! I'm not the OP, but feel myself feeling very similarly to the OP. I have to always remember this!