Am I in denial or having so-ocd?

[Anonymous]

Hii! I would love some opinions on this because this thought has been eating me alive since a few days ago. I have always been (what I thought was) interested in men, but now I am like maybe im not straight? Here are some things: I am an extremely anxious person, last year I convinced myself I was having a cryptic pregnancy. I have always liked the idea of men but when they get too close I start to get scared and turn them away but then the second they move on I want them back. Anytime I like a boy I get those nervous/excited feelings. I have never had any real sexual experiences with men, but anytime I do it I want them hook up to end (or I think I have done that- not remembering very well right now). I keep trying to get reassurance form people on tiktok/etc and all there coming out realizations am I starting to overthink are me. I am so worried people think I am lesbian and I don’t want to be, it makes me angry. I have alwyas imagined myself with a guy and tried to picture myself with a women and I don’t think I am but maybe that is just me overthinking, and I actually can picture it. Please give me some advice this issue is eating me alive. Thank you!

[Anonymous]

I would suggest talking to a therapist.

First, I want to point out that you're "worried" people will possibly consider you to be a lesbian. I would ask you why that's something you're worried about? Nothing is wrong or shameful with being a LGBT.

Given what you've said here I can't tell if it's comphet or you're just straight.

So again, please speak to a therapist.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:I would suggest talking to a therapist.

First, I want to point out that you're "worried" people will possibly consider you to be a lesbian. I would ask you why that's something you're worried about? Nothing is wrong or shameful with being a LGBT.

Given what you've said here I can't tell if it's comphet or you're just straight.

So again, please speak to a therapist.

OP here. I am going to speak with a therapist. Now I am stressing that I am comphet. But I don’t want to be lesbian, but like maybe I am and I just don’t know it?

[Anonymous]

I would rather be happy and sexually fulfilled than be unhappy and unfulfilled to be what I thought others wanted of me. Life is too short.

[Anonymous]

Were your abused when you were younger?

[Anonymous]

How old are you? You definitely over think things

[Anonymous]

Also why are you going on TikTok to determine your sexuality?

[Anonymous]

OP here again, I just need reassurance that I am not gay.

[Anonymous]

OP again also I have never looked at girls sexually I also have never let a boy get close to me before emotionally.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:Were your abused when you were younger?

This. The op is giving borderline personality disorder moreso than ocd or sexual identity crisis, imo.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:OP here again, I just need reassurance that I am not gay.

Reassurance is the last thing you need. Sit with the discomfort and uncertainty.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:OP here again, I just need reassurance that I am not gay.

That would be the worst thing in the world? Wouldn’t you rather be gay and accept that then be anxious and unhappy all the time?

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:OP here again, I just need reassurance that I am not gay.

You're not gay. There. The internet has declared it so. Now you can move on to your next obsession.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:OP here again, I just need reassurance that I am not gay.

That would be the worst thing in the world? Wouldn’t you rather be gay and accept that then be anxious and unhappy all the time?

Thats the thing I am trying to figure out tho its not that I have anyyy problems with gay people I just dont want to be gay but my mind keeps making ne overthink certain things to lead me to believe I am in denial, but it makes me feel physically sick at the possib Of being gay.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:OP here again, I just need reassurance that I am not gay.

That would be the worst thing in the world? Wouldn’t you rather be gay and accept that then be anxious and unhappy all the time?

Thats the thing I am trying to figure out tho its not that I have anyyy problems with gay people I just dont want to be gay but my mind keeps making ne overthink certain things to lead me to believe I am in denial, but it makes me feel physically sick at the possib Of being gay.

How old are you? You sound like you spend a lot of time inventing problems to get attention in the form of reassurance. Definitely go talk to a therapist.

Nobody cares if someone is gay or not, and going onto an LGBTQ forum talking about being worried that you are gay because you don't want to be is actually pretty tone deaf. Stop it.