[b] Forgot to answer the rest: I'm 37. I have shortness of breath, no medical conditions. |
How did you gain 120 lbs in three years? Whoa, that's scary. I'm overweight too, haven't lost, but at least stayed the same for a long time. What I mean is it hasn't crept continually up at all. |
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I couldn't fit into a blouse, I wear XXL shirts. I'd like to be 170 a well I don't look normal, people would look at me and think I am obese. |
[b] I was bulimic for 15 years and went to treatment for 3 months. I stopped throwing up and using laxatives but kept eating! Sometimes I wish I had never gone to rehab, but all my friends say I'm more fun and happy now. Except inside I'm just sad. And fat on the outside. |
[b] Thank you and same to you!! I want to lose it the right way, I just feel overwhelmed. |
[b] I've gained 40 pounds/year on average. |
I'm sad for you - I'm sorry. That's tough. Dealing with an eating disorder is a lifelong struggle, as is weight of course. Good luck OP - I wish I could help you. |
How tall are you? Unless you are quite tall, at 230 pounds people would think you were fat. Not saying that to be mean but perhaps your body image is more distorted than you think. |
Are you still in therapy / treatment given you still have an active eating disorder? Dont' give up. Every pound you lose counts. |
Thanks. I already know I'm fat. Your post didn't bring me to catharsis. |
Thanks, that means a lot to me! I feel like too much of a failure to talk to anyone about this, I just pretend I'm fat and happy. All my friends always say how great it is that I stopped throwing up. I feel like a fraud. |
I'm too embarrassed to go back. I just feel so low and can't face my therapist. I know I need to go back, it's just hard. The food is easy Thanks for the encouragement, I'm trying to get myself back on a program. |
Do you ride metro? |
That wasn't directed to you OP but to the PP that said she was 230 pounds but that people wouldn't think she was fat. |
[b] No. I'm always worried I won't fit in the seat or spill over on someone, so I drive. |