This morning I got to work early so I sat on the porch and took in the quiet of the morning. My job is stressful. We are navigating some problems that I have been praying will get better. In those few minutes I did a bit of meditation, focusing on compassion. In that comfortable silence I made a resolution that no matter what I faced when that door opened I would respond with kindness and love and make an effort to meet the family where they were at rather than where I felt they ought to be. Well, that door opened to a sit down with the family and they let me go. Nothing I would have said would have changed their mind. Not if I screamed, not if I begged, not if I defended myself. Instead I mentally acknowledged that they need something other then what I have to offer. I love their kids enough to want someone for them who will be the absolute best fit because it will yield the best bond in the long run. Now I will turn that compassion to myself so I can exercise some love before I start job hunting again.
To anyone who has had a painful parting,
Namaste
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