I'm starting to hate my job....

[Anonymous]

Right now I'm going threw severe depression and its honestly affecting everything to my home life, my personal life to my school to the one thing I loved the most which was working with kids. Honestly if I had seen my job going like this I would have never took this kind of job. Why...because I'm working for a mom who works part time and a 80 percent breastfed baby. Everyday I'm here with this baby I get holy hell almost all day. And mom won't work with me the days I'm not here...what's the result the baby is on two completely different schedules every other day. Mom breastfeeds her I bottle feed her. Mom nurses her to sleep I try to let her cry it out because I can't breastfeed. This is PURE HELL...I don't think I'll ever work for an EBF baby again on a PART TIME schedule like this....im nickeled and dimed constanly at this job, No PTO, No sick days. When mom gets days off unexpected she has me come and clean which was not part of my job. All I want to do is cry nothing in my life is going right and THIS is the only decent option I have. I've outgrown all my friends, so i get no outlet....I just had to move back home because of the roommate drama from hell, I work 7 days a week with 3 different jobs....I'm at my breaking point and honestly I want to die....Before you say it I'm not THE TROLL this is real.....

[Anonymous]

I'm sorry OP. Are you in therapy? If you are feeling that depressed I would seek help. Thoughts are with you.

[Anonymous]

I agree with PP -- you need some therapy to help you sort through this. I see a lot of options in your situation, but if you're really depressed, you won't be able to see them or implement them. You need some help to get you through. Do you have health insurance?

[Anonymous]

This is the OP- I have no health insurance....I wish going to a doctors appointment wouldn't cost me almost $2000 dollars

[Anonymous]

Hi op! Sorry you are feeling blue. Although therapy is awesome and most people benefit from it, there isn't enough therapy in the world that is going to make you like your job if you hate it. I currently have a part time charge with a nanny share arrangement and whoa has it been difficult. It's hard when you do one thing and the other caregivers or parents do another. It makes you feel like you're back at step one. I told myself I wouldn't take another part time nanny position for an infant ever again. Can you elaborate more on your situation? You say you get "holy hell" everyday and the mother won't work with you. Does that mean you have tried talking to her about your issues? Parents and caregivers are in a partnership and if communication isn't open and you guys are not on the same page and then it may just not work. Is there an option for you to find one full time position with benefits?

[Anonymous]

Seeing a Dr/psychiatrist isn't $2000. More like 200 out of pocket. Ive paid for my own therapy out if pocket on and off for years. Don't make excuses. You need to see a Dr.

[Anonymous]

12:06 $200 is still $200. To some people that is still a lot of money. I know for me that $200 on a weekly basis for therapy would not be financially doable. If someone is this depressed they would need to see someone weekly and that price adds up. Let's try showing a little compassion please.

[Anonymous]

I wouldn't even be able to afford $200 a month if it were me needing help... I do put some money aside for saving each month, but I would not be able to financially afford $200 a month to go towards that and then not have money to later on when possibly needed.

OP, look in your community for any low income, sliding scale mental health services. While it may not be as good as private therapy sessions, you can usually find something like this in each city as a last resort option. There is usually a number you can find to call and talk to someone where they can refer you to a program that will help you out.