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[quote=Anonymous][quote=Anonymous]I sympathize with the feeling.  Not to hijack your thread, but in August/Sept, I was feeling great.  I was exercising, in the best shape in 20 years, recovering from a heart procedure with full gusto.  I was feeling like, for the first time since I beat stage four cancer several years ago, that everything was good.  I was down 15 lbs, but I figured it was because I was eating healthier and working out. Once COVID was past, things would be great.

Then, I started not feeling well.  I was having problems digesting food -- I did not know why. CT scan showed the problem clearly:  I had 30-40 tumors on my liver, and several more in surrounding my gallbladder with numerous suspicious. lymph nodes.  Oh, and I was in severe abdominal pain (keeping me awake at night).

I am now three months into Chemo.  I have averaged 1 week a month in the hospital.  I do not know if it is working yet.  Some symptoms are better, but I have to wear a damn bag to drain my gall bladder.  My weight is down from 280 (yeah, I was big) to 200.  None of my clothes fit me.  I can only leave the house for medical appointments because I can not risk COVID.

So I am sitting here completely isolated from the world withering away to nothing.  I am not going to see my daughter graduate college, or get feel. married.

I am a 57 yo male, supposed to be strong, crying while typing this.  I know how you feel

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I am so sorry, pp. Sending you my prayers for peace and comfort. One day at a time.[/quote]

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