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[quote=Anonymous][quote=Anonymous]I've been with my husband for over 10 years, we have a young child.  Our relationship has never been perfect, fights were always horrible when we had them because we were so passionate and loved each other fiercely that our fights had the same amount of passion just negative.  We both have mental health issues that make things get really bad, he has anger issues an addictive personality, and he is almost sociopathic in how he can just shut down.  I have anxiety and tend to get depressed easily.

We went through fertility treatments to have our toddler.  That put a huge strain on our relationship and just before the final Ivf cycle we were ready to split up. Then, I found out it worked and I was pregnant after many years of infertility.  Things were much better and we were happy in our marriage and as parents.  DH mentioned having a vasectomy almost immediately after our child was born and I urged him not to do it in case anything ever happen to our child that I would want to have more but I also agreed to only one child.  After talking with my OB I was convinced with all our fertility issues that I wouldn't need BC.

Last year around this time, I found out I got pregnant accidentally and without intervention.   My husband completely freaked out and immediately told me I had to have an abortion!  I fought with him for weeks to agree to keep the baby.  I don't believe in abortion for myself (I am prochoice, that's just not my choice).  For weeks he threatened me with anything he could think of to get me to abort, suicide, leaving me, taking everything, etc.  He had me so scared of being left pregnant and with a baby with no home, no money and no support that I caved and let him take me to have an abortion.  I was so beaten down by his threats that I did what he wanted.  He used our first child against me saying that he never wanted any children and that he gave me a child, for me, and now it was my turn to do something for him.  He promised to be a better husband to me if I had the abortion.  I still can't believe the man who loved me could ever ask me do this.

It's now been a year, I've put on 25 lbs from depression, on top of the weight i gained from the last 2 pregnancies and fertility treatments.  I have been suicidal.  He's become abusive during fights and cold and distant. I hate him so much it hurts to be around him.  I haven't stopped  thinking about the baby I gave up over the last year.  I blame him for everything I'm feeling and he always shoots back that it was ultimately my choice to "lay on that table and spread my legs".   I believe all the volatility is starting to affect my toddler's emotional development and my child has witnessed my husband be violent with me on many occasions.

I know I need to leave but I am terrified of what my husband will do.  This man I once loved so much has become a complete stranger I am terrified of him.[/quote]. Please call a lawyer for a one hour consult to ask how to get him to leave the home safely.  He is an abuser and you need to be strong to protect your toddler.  Split from him asap before he attacks you or your DC.  
  From one who has been there...[/quote]

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