Just wanted to add about a similar experience. So uncomfortable. |
There are plenty of crazy STEM advisors too. Mine had me do his laundry and dust his office. He had me come into the office at 3 AM to fix a paper jam in the printer. I invited him to my wedding and he assigned me a project on my wedding night, due the next morning. He was mad that I'd taken a couple of days off to get married. He also liked to walk through the labs, quiz students and fire those whose answers he didn't like. My PI wasnt interested, but several others in our dept were sleeping with students. Par for the course. |
Lol, no I'm not a Physics PhD, but my spouse is. I've hung out with a ton and work with many. I also know many people with social science PhDs. Smart, but not even in the same league. |
In my case, a STEM/Computational Physics field, I was handed a project for my MS. As I was finishing it, I knew I wanted to continue the research. For me, there were many unanswered questions. I was not at a top program, but everyone knew, liked and respected my advisor. I looked around, and realized that if I were to continue in what I was interested in, I would need to either stay at my university or go overseas (Taiwan or Japan). I did apply to other PhD programs: Caltech, MIT, Berkeley....was admitted to all (I had a good Masters). But I stayed because I liked working with my Advisor. Staying also meant that my classwork was done. I immediately worked on my dissertation proposal; it took me about 1 year to get it done because I needed to broaden my perspective and demonstrate the feasibility of the proposal. I also published a paper based on on Master's, and obtained funding from the NSF (advisor was PI; I wrote the proposal). I was on track for a PhD in three years post MA, when the sh*t hit the fan. I ended up having a breakdown....things were not working as well as I expected, I could not handle the problem. I was not going to be able to demonstrate what I thought I would. Deep depression followed by questioning my intelligence. For about 6 months I was against a wall, and no progress was made. This is quite typical in my field. But, I persisted. I figured out where the data was leading me. And, with a nearly 2 year delay, I persevered. In the process, I realized, I did not want to be a professor; I saw my fellow grad students going through the same problems I did, some worked through it, many did not. There was very limited faculty guidance. The attitude was figure it out...that is what makes it research. I did figure it out. And 25 years later, I am still in the field, doing research, but not associated with a university. I believe this is a typical experience with a STEM PhD. The thing about the STEM fields is there are usually observables that can be used to destroy a bad idea. Sometimes, the student is not aware of those. It is more than just mental masturbation. |
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Like PP, I decided I didn't want to be a prof.
I realized that I didn't like the way my professors treated other people, and I couldn't work in an environment where teaching paid the bills but everyone was scornful of its importance. Mostly I just didn't want to spend my life hanging out with such people. Also like PP, I am decades out and do research and other work in my field. I'm glad I persevered because I have a good professional and personal life as a result of the degree, but I am also glad to be out of academe. |
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I’m a non-STEM PhD with a college-aged kid who (currently) wants to be a STEM PhD. Watching DC start down that path, the first hurdle really has been getting her head around the fact that lots of experiments/work can yield nothing worth publishing. I can already envision what PP means when s/he says failing at a Chem PhD can be a messy, drawn-out process.
As a humanities PhD, you feel as if success or failure is all about you — no circumstances beyond your control. It’s daunting sometimes and comforting at other times. (This may explain where another poster’s comment about big egos comes from). From the outside looking in, I suspect resilience is probably a crucial trait for a successful/happy career in science. You might get lucky at the PhD stage and not need it, but longer-term, I can’t see how you’d thrive without it. |
I call getting insanely good job offers "circumstances beyond your control". Money is the reason lots of people don't finish. Not the lack of money but earning really good money. By then, the academic world long lost its appeal and many are ready to jump ship or delay until it fits into the work schedule. |
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Insanely good job offer typically comes when you’re close to finishing the PhD.
Should have said as a Humanities PhD *candidate* — was talking about finishing the degree — not succeeding as an academic. Although, arguably, the great job can be more likely to drive you out of the field than the good enough job. |
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As a tenured prof in the humanities, my take is that you need:
1) Persistence. A lot of really smart people out there, but not all of them have grit. You need resilience to get through the lonely times, rejections, setbacks, and relative poverty (compared to peers who, say, went to law school and are making multiple times what you make) for years. In the humanities, many PhDs take 7-10 years to finish. 2) Intelligence. You have to be able to read and decipher a lot of arcane material, write about it, and make arguments about it. You have to be somewhat quick on your feet to defend your ideas in seminars and before other colleagues. Many PhD programs also require at least reading knowledge in two foreign languages. 3) Professional smarts. A little different than street smarts. You have to know to seek programs that will land you a tenure-track job, mentors that are both well-respected and good to students, and assume the culture of academia. Every culture has a code that you need to break into in order to be accepted, and academia is no exception. There are thousands of cultural ques in academia that no one really explains to you. 4) Money. I tell my students that if they can't be fully funded for graduate school, they should really consider other options. Harsh reality. Top graduate programs will pay for tuition and living expenses. You won't be high on the hog, but you'll be able to get your Phd with minimal debt. 5) Luck. A colleague of mine happened to be writing her dissertation on contemporary Arabic literature when 9/11 happened. She was flooded with interviews when she was on the job market. After 9/11, a ton of colleges and universities opened tenure-track lines in Arabic. Of course, she was also smart, accomplished, and personable, which helped her to land a tenure-track job. But, she doesn't discount the timing, which was entirely beyond her control, in her professional success. |