I hate it. Every year it reminds me how hard it isto separate myself from my mom's shit. Just crawled into bed so I can be in my bad mood by myself.
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I'm sorry, OP. |
OP, I think that's the biggest problem with holidays -- of any kind. They're great for families who have no history of dysfunction.
But for people who are trying to move past bad memories, they only serve as a reminder of past trauma and dysfunction. I think there are a lot of people who feel the way you do, but it's not (and never will be) reflected in the Hallmark section of the drugstore. I hope you are able to move past the bad things and move on, even if that means some distance from your mother. Hugs. |
Thank you. I just cleaned my closet. My teen softened his tone. Going down for breakfast soon. |
Thanks. Angry at myself. Done being angry at mom. |
Don't give YOUR family YOUR grief. Make the choice today to be your very best for them.
Happy Mother's Day |
NP: how do I get over the feeling that washes over me every time I see a mushy card, or FB post gushing over one's warm, loving mother, about how unfair it was that I didn't have a mother like that? |