Scared about TTC

[Anonymous]

Hi All,

I'm 40 and I've been diagnosed with a luteal phase defect. The RE seems reasonably confident that I will be able to get pregnant relatively quickly with the fertility drugs. Here is the issue, lately I've been overwhelmed with being scared of getting pregnant. I want to get pregnant.

Backstory: I was pregnant last summer with a ancencephalic pregnancy.

We had the tissue analyzed and there were no chromosomal defects, but I'm now scared of repeating the anencephaly (I'm on megadoses of folic) or another NTD or having a chromosomal abnormality because of my AMA. I know that the odds are small for either one of these even with my AMA, but I'm still nervous.

My hormone numbers for my ovarian reserve are very good FSH 4.7 and LH 3.3. I don't have the estrogen numbers.

Is this normal? Does this cross everyone's mind? Am I just super sensitive because I've already had the worst happen?

Thanks.

[Anonymous]

You are not super sensitive. I think anyone over the age of 40 who is TTC thinks about it. I'm 41 and already have a 4 year old, and have been desperately trying for 2 years (both with and without the help of an RE). I definitely worry that if I do get pregnant there will be something wrong. I will definitely do CVS if I do get pregnant, and depending on the results my husband and I would discuss next steps for us. The thing is you have to keep a positive attitude, that the chances are slim and you have a good shot at getting pregnant. I know it is hard, as I struggle sometimes, but I am grateful for my beautiful child and lucky to have a decent life.

[Anonymous]

In life, which are you more likely to regret - that which you tried and failed or that which you never even attempted?