Why am I so delusional?

[Anonymous]

Apologies in advance for the vent: BFN today, supposed to get AF tomorrow. I am having cramps and though they are obviously period cramps I am thinking oh who knows maybe it's late implantation. Why am I so delusional? I hate this process and how completely irrational it makes me. Why can't I just admit defeat and have a big fat glass of wine instead of continuing to torture myself and building up expectations only to have them dashed?

[Anonymous]

I hear you, sister. I have been at this a long time and still do the same thing. I have just accepted that I am going to think and act in an irrational way from about 3 days before my expected period to 2 days after (getting my hopes up in the face of all evidence to the contrary, then crushing disappointment). It's the best I can do.

[Anonymous]

Right there with you.

[Anonymous]

Go have the glass of wine. Now. You can still be hopeful for a positive and drink wine. It's not admitting defeat. And it will not have any impact on a positive or negative pregnancy test.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:Go have the glass of wine. Now. You can still be hopeful for a positive and drink wine. It's not admitting defeat. And it will not have any impact on a positive or negative pregnancy test.

+1

[Anonymous]

I'm the same way, OP. This month I had light some spotting at 8dpo (implantation?) and then cramping and bad nausea from 10-13 dpo. Last night the nausea was so bad that I was sensitive to strong smells. I actually had myself completely convinced I was pregnant. Of course, my period arrived on time today.
I don't know why I fall for this. I've been TTC for the better part of 6 years (only positives have come from IVF) without a diagnosis. I ovulate every month like clockwork, we have sex with perfect timing and I never get pregnant. And yet i STILL get fooled when I get symptoms like this.

[Anonymous]

I'm sorry pp. this is op and i guess the only solace we can take is we are not alone. But it still stinks. Bad.

I did take the advice on the wine. I appreciate it ladies.

[Anonymous]

Try acupuncture.

[Anonymous]

I know how you feel, too. Thought this cycle may have worked, but got a temp drop this morning, and now some red.

[Anonymous]

Anonymous wrote:I know how you feel, too. Thought this cycle may have worked, but got a temp drop this morning, and now some red.

And that moment of seeing AF... Ugh. Makes me want to scream most months, but I don't. So upsetting.
Be good to yourself, OP.

[Anonymous]

Hey everyone OP here got a BFP! Who knows if it will stick but I wanted to share and thank everyone for all the support.

[Anonymous]

Congrats OP!

[Anonymous]

Nice!!!!!!!!

[Anonymous]

Clap clap clap!!!!

[Anonymous]

So great to hear a success story!! Congrats! Take care of yourself.