Feeling hopeless -- BFN with wondfo hpt 7dp5dt

[Anonymous]

Just feeling really down. Was supposed to be planning to join my in-laws for Labor Day, but I may break it to DH that I just eant it to be us. I'm not optimistic this cycle will magically turn out successful. I had a + with the same batch of tests ojn my last cycle...we started this one as soon as my RE allowed after my m/c and d&c from that one. I'm wondering if I started too soon, DH left it up to me but had suggested waiting a month to give me some rest. I was so distraught over that loss, though, all I could think of was moving forward. It's not even 3 months since my d&c, and somehow this likely-failed cycle is making the loss feel worse. I'm cursing the progesterone for keeping my period from comking so I can end the wait for what I know is inevitable.

No real question...just putting it out there to ladies who I think might understand.

And please don't reply telling me its my fault for doing an hpt. The wondfo tests are incredibly sensitive, and statiscally the odds I'm pregnant with a negative test today are very low if you look at the test stats. I don't mind stories of success later in the cycle, but I don't need a lecture.

[Anonymous]

I am so sorry to hear that. I have been in a similiar place more times than I care to count. For the last couple of failed cycles, I stopped my meds around 10dp5dt (after getting negatives on FRER Early Result tests) and did not go to the RE's office for a beta. That allowed me to grieve in my own way and on my own schedule. Give yourself a break and definitely reschedule your labor day plans if you don't feel up for it. And if you drink, have a drink (or two...or three...or four).

[Anonymous]

No lecture from me. Those tests are very reliable and I appreciate the option of knowing the grim truth (which timing of the test won't change one way or the other) sooner and on my own schedule rather than later on the clinic's schedule.

What is your situation? Is it your second IVF? For what that's worth, I think you did the right thing by going back to IVF as soon as possible. I think that shows resilience and fighting spirit on your part and that should serve you well in this journey.

[Anonymous]

OP here. Thanks for the thoughts. Yes, it's our second IVF, after two failed unmedicated IUIs. We're coming up on 2 yrs of TTC. I'm 34 (35 soon), and our only dx is MFI.