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I have been working 1-2 year contracts the last few years for different organizations where I work full time with the team. During the contract itself I am very self assured and competent but the last couple weeks, I always get weird. I have no problem standing in front of a room of people and giving a talk but put me in a 'goodbye' gathering where I have to be the center of attention and say a few words and I get awkward and sweaty and anxious and say / do things I regret. Nothing horrible, just I seem like a flustered mess. Today, I blew a kiss to a group - not something I have ever done before and don't even do regularly in daily life! I am not like this at all until the end, I guess I just don't do well with the transition out and the awkwardness of goodbyes and people needing to say nice things and make small talk about me leaving. It has happened now the last 3 times, maybe a self-fulfilling prophecy but I hate leaving with the last impression being a bad one.
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