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For some time now — probably longer than I want to remember — I feel that I do not have the bandwidth or the energy or focus to deal with certain things. Let’s say there’s an upcoming field trip that needs volunteers, or there’s a food drive, or a special project at work, or I really need to figure out my parents’ health or living arrangements. Sorry, no can do. A string of emails about some neighborhood issue? Please; I can’t bring myself to even read them. I don’t have it in me to deal with much more than my job and the kids and day to day matters. I don’t want to be disturbed with anything out of the ordinary. I don’t really want to deal with people. I stare at my screen all day at work and then go home. I think this gets worse as I get older, or maybe I’m just more aware of my limitations. Is this a problem? Feels like it. I can’t do anything other than what must absolutely be done. Everything is a burden; I want to be left alone. Does anyone else feel overwhelmed like this?
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