Giving hope

[Anonymous]

Greetings everyone,

I have PCOS, and after so many failed trials of trying to conceive naturally, I failed miserably. I tried Clomid and sure enough the magic pill helped me get pregnant quickly only to lose pregnancy to undetected cervical incompetence. My hope of becoming a mother crashed again. Once again tried and tried using rounds of clomid, even going to multiple infertility clinics and tried rounds and rounds of IUI, IVF out of pocket until it drained the last drop of our blood and was still unsuccessful. Then when my third IVF was soon to be scheduled again with new trials of extracting new eggs, I couldn’t do it anymore. I was drained emotionally and physically. FYI, all our testing were normal. At that moment, I told my husband I can’t do it anymore. All we were doing for a good 5 years is just trying and trying and injecting myself with all kind of hormones and still couldn’t conceive. It wasn’t a way to live my life anymore. Needless to mention the senseless friends who never get ashamed to ask why are we not trying hard to have kids. Hubby agreed to take a break from all the chaos of the infertility world. I started enjoying life and for once I felt free. I made peace with myself that I will not become a mother and God knows how I gave it all my best. Then one month my menstrual cycle was late and I didn’t think much of it given my PCOS causing irregular cycle at times, then I had an OBGYN visit for yeast infecting that was killing me every single month for almost a year. The nurse asked if it was okay to take a pregnancy test just to be safe before I start treatment for this yeast that doesn’t go away. I said yeah sure you are just wasting your test on an infertile woman. Then the shock when she enters the room holding the test and tears in her eyes. My pregnancy was difficult had complications was bed rest for the most part but I gave birth to a healthy boy that changed my life forever. After almost 4 years, I decided to try again but I knew I had to ensure my cycle gets back to normal so I see a other OBGYN who tells me it’s impossible for me to get pregnant on my own and that my pregnancy was just a coincidence as it was just the effect of the treatment I was getting for IVF that prepared my body to conceive. She prescribed me clomid for 2 months which did nothing by the 4th month I got pregnant on my own. I used I used the ovusense ovulation tracker, which I thought was useful. Third time was a charm, used absolutely nothing to help me conceive. But one thing, I did differently is that I stopped stressing and getting overwhelmed by my infertility. I pray for every woman going through infertility hardship to get her wishes of holding her own baby one day.

Don’t lose hope!