Getting diagnosed with cancer. The possibility of no longer having a choice really made me realize I don’t want to die.

Anonymous wrote:Your poor children shouldn't have the job of keeping you alive. You should figure that out as an adult.

Screw you. Go tell a cancer patient to shake it off.

Anonymous wrote:Single mom here - pretty sure my kids would be better off without me. I'm not doing anyone much good. I'm basically taking up space and wish I was a much better mom and a much better provider. I'm on meds, in therapy, doing my due diligence. But I think about suicide every day. But if you saw me, you would never ever know.

No, your kids would not be better off without you. Ask anyone who lost a mom. It hurts and it never gets better. They love you and you love them. Hugs.

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Anonymous wrote:Single mom here - pretty sure my kids would be better off without me. I'm not doing anyone much good. I'm basically taking up space and wish I was a much better mom and a much better provider. I'm on meds, in therapy, doing my due diligence. But I think about suicide every day. But if you saw me, you would never ever know.

Single mom here, I've had those thoughts too. And believe it, it's the meds not working, ask for different meds. BTDT. You can do it.

Your kids need you- they will always think it's their fault if you go. Change meds ASAP.

I'm an internet stranger and I care about you. Just take it one day at a time.

Dead is forever and forever is mighty long time. No reason to rush. It might be even worse then life.

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Anonymous wrote:Single mom here - pretty sure my kids would be better off without me. I'm not doing anyone much good. I'm basically taking up space and wish I was a much better mom and a much better provider. I'm on meds, in therapy, doing my due diligence. But I think about suicide every day. But if you saw me, you would never ever know.

Single mom here, I've had those thoughts too. And believe it, it's the meds not working, ask for different meds. BTDT. You can do it.

+1 to all of this, another single mom that went through the same and votes that you adjust the meds. And your kids would not be better off without you. You are their mother.

Because while it would solve my problems for me, it would create problems for many more.people. DH, ds, my family and friends... So as much as there can be days where I'm just over it, I'd feel too guilty. That's what got me through the really bad days 6 years ago. Since then, Ive made a lot of positive life changed and while the depression still lingers, and some days are a struggle, I haven't thought about suicide in a long time.

I'm eternally grateful for my husband, who recognized what was going on and has been incredibly helpful and supportive.

Anonymous wrote:Single mom here - pretty sure my kids would be better off without me. I'm not doing anyone much good. I'm basically taking up space and wish I was a much better mom and a much better provider. I'm on meds, in therapy, doing my due diligence. But I think about suicide every day. But if you saw me, you would never ever know.

Single mom here, I've had those thoughts too. And believe it, it's the meds not working, ask for different meds. BTDT. You can do it.

Single mom here - pretty sure my kids would be better off without me. I'm not doing anyone much good. I'm basically taking up space and wish I was a much better mom and a much better provider. I'm on meds, in therapy, doing my due diligence. But I think about suicide every day. But if you saw me, you would never ever know.

My family. I don't want them to have a suicide anniversary and hurt every year because they'll feel like they failed me, which is not the case. I didn't want to hurt my kids or my siblings. I sometimes thought about the people who'll find my body, the clean up, the trauma. I didn't want to put this on anyone. Then I try to think about all the people who'd love to be me, or have my life, and while it doesn't "lift me" it buoys me.

Also, I second the PP who said get on meds or tweak the meds. Anti-depressants help you not feel so helpless. They might not make every day sunshine and rainbows, but it'll help with suicide ideations.

Anonymous wrote:How devastated my mom would be losing a child. She’s been a loving supportive mom my entire life.
My problems with depression, if they lead to suicide, should not be a reflection on her parenting skills.

Now that I am a parent with young kids, and seeing how naturally needy they are for a mom, even if it’s imperfect me, that prevents it.

How devastated my mom would be losing a child. She’s been a loving supportive mom my entire life.
My problems with depression, if they lead to suicide, should not be a reflection on her parenting skills.

Honestly I’ve had a few really scary nights when the kind responses from strangers on DCUM got me through to the next morning. To whoever you are: thank you.

Your poor children shouldn't have the job of keeping you alive. You should figure that out as an adult.

Anonymous wrote:I'm afraid I'll traumatize my daughters.

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