Wow...I invested a lot of time and thought into giving you the best advice I could just now, then I read back some of the previous answers and it appears that OP is a phony.

I feel duped.

She or he, hurts everyone by doing this because sadly, there are people on here who are sincere and desperate and now may people will not take their posts seriously because of this poster who cried wolf.

I agree, go take a shower NOW. Not because we can all smell you, we cannot...But in order to get better, you need to take baby steps.

So start off with a nice long shower, brush your teeth (and your hair) and shampoo your hair too.

Then straighten up a bit around the house. Again...Baby steps.

You should feel a bit better.

Yes, money is tight but there has to be a way for you to survive. If you have to rely on Food Stamps, then so be it. Also, visit a local food bank to supplement your food supply.

Go on care.com or sittercity.com and see if anyone in your local neighborhood needs a house/baby/pet sitter. If you have to, advertise to clean houses to make a little extra ca$h.

And continue applying for work. Do not lose the faith OP, keep trying. Nothing good ever came easy to someone. Never.

Let others help you out. Close friends, family members, neighbors and church people. You need as much support as possible right now. Also, if you can, ask your M.D. to get evaluated for depression. If you can get on some good anti-depressant medication(s) they can do a whole world of good.

(((( Hugs ))))

Troll-

I'm genuinely curious why you would make this post up? I hope you answer because it seems so strange to me. People were concerned and trying to help. What are you getting out of this?

The OP does not want a job. The OP will never follow any of the many suggestions posted. The OP wants her family to kowtow to her because of some perceived wrong they have done to her. The OP wants a free ride in life and when she doesn't get it, she starts to post on an anonymous forum so that others will enable her alleged feelings of despair.

In a word you are suckers.

Well, Troll, you should be ashamed because a lot of us were genuinely concerned and took time to give, someone we believed to be in desperate straits, information to help.

You go to Hell troll and stay there.

And here's the proof.
http://www.dcurbanmom.com/jforum/posts/list/488377.page

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:And yet, despite this pit of despair you have fallen head first into, you manage to have an internet service, own a computer and can in fact, log-on to a discussion site where you talk at length about your dislocation from society.

Okay...

Why be bitchy about it? How do you know that she doesn't have an ipad or laptop that she bought 3 yrs ago while employed and is hanging out at a McDonalds or something with free wifi.

Because OP is a troll.