Ugh, me too!

of COURSE chelsea clinton is pregnant! because everyone else in the entire world is pregnant! hooooray for them!!

BARF.

^^ And what I hate about TTC is having this reaction to news that is absolutely irrelevant to me.

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Anonymous wrote:The embarrassment of digging out a HPT stick from the trash - hours after I took it and got BFN - just to see if MAYBE I misread it. I have done this twice. I'm a moron.

No judgment, but That is depressing

Yes. Yes it is. And with that, I hereby vow to the internets to never ever ever dig a HPT out of the trash again. The End.

Anonymous wrote:The embarrassment of digging out a HPT stick from the trash - hours after I took it and got BFN - just to see if MAYBE I misread it. I have done this twice. I'm a moron.

No judgment, but That is depressing

The embarrassment of digging out a HPT stick from the trash - hours after I took it and got BFN - just to see if MAYBE I misread it. I have done this twice. I'm a moron.

the miscarriages

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Anonymous wrote:When i get my period on the day it's supposed to arrive, after using FRER for a solid week, and feeling guilty drinking wine to unwind b/c I can't help wondering (hoping) if it could possibly be implantation bleeding.

Yup. This last cycle I felt like one of the delusional looneytunes on babycenter. Just because I started spotting a day early I started to wonder maybe... just maybe.... could it be implantation bleeding??? and I start googling like mad. even though I just took a HPT the day before and it was negative. why do I kid myself? I'm such a fool. It's you're period, you dummy! Accept it. I thought I was smarter than the babycenter lot - turns out I'm just as crazy.

I did the same thing when I first started. I thought how could I NOT be pregnant, and would google for hope. I hate google at this point. I still google, but much less, and now I focus my insanity/obsessiveness on DCUM instead...

Anonymous wrote:What did I hate most? It not working.

+1 I'm starting to feel sort of hopeless about it all. I don't want to do fertility drugs/IUI/IVF because of the increased risk of twins (even if it's just a slight increase, it's just not a risk I'm willing to take; it's not a judgment, so, please, don't anyone get offended if you are looking into those things). I suppose I should get things checked out to see if there's something wrong (scarring from a D&C when I miscarried, et cetera). But I'm already exhausted.

The whole getting pregnant, miscarrying, trying again thing just makes it all seem like constant disappointment.

Anonymous wrote:When i get my period on the day it's supposed to arrive, after using FRER for a solid week, and feeling guilty drinking wine to unwind b/c I can't help wondering (hoping) if it could possibly be implantation bleeding.

Yup. This last cycle I felt like one of the delusional looneytunes on babycenter. Just because I started spotting a day early I started to wonder maybe... just maybe.... could it be implantation bleeding??? and I start googling like mad. even though I just took a HPT the day before and it was negative. why do I kid myself? I'm such a fool. It's you're period, you dummy! Accept it. I thought I was smarter than the babycenter lot - turns out I'm just as crazy.

When i get my period on the day it's supposed to arrive, after using FRER for a solid week, and feeling guilty drinking wine to unwind b/c I can't help wondering (hoping) if it could possibly be implantation bleeding.

Chemical pregnancy...very disheartening to see the positive pregnancy test and then have your period come a week late. : (

Guess I will be sticking to the cheaper pregnancy tests with a higher threshold from now on. I had no idea the OTC tests could be so sensitive.

Anonymous wrote:The shame I feel in being attracted to guys other than my husband who probably don't have pereformance issues.

Ooof. I"m so sorry. the posts on this board have been really eye-opening for me on this topic. I had no idea what a pervasive issue it is for guys - but it doesn't surprise me. I feel bad for the dudes, but definitely feel bad for the women, too. Have you read a bunch of the other threads on here about this? People seemed to have some good advice.

My DH can perform, but with each passing month he is increasingly worried that he is our problem. Not sure if that will be better or worse than a performance issue. He's going to the "yank yank bank" (his term) soon.

The shame I feel in being attracted to guys other than my husband who probably don't have pereformance issues.

What I hate most, b/c it's happening TODAY, is when you're on cycle day 25, and you start spotting, and you wonder if it's implantation spotting (and start thinking you're noticing other symptoms) or the beginning of your period, but know you won't find out for another 3 or 4 days.

Today is National Sibling Day. I thought for sure that the tiny pink spot I saw yesterday was implantation bleeding. I thought finally my dd would get a sibling. And then I got my period today. 5 days early. Wtf. I'm so tired of this road.