Take it to the micro, OP. To whatever extent you can, make a few minutes to disconnect from the circumstances completely and observe the wonder of being in your own body. Breathe in and out. Your body does it thousands of times a day with no help from you! Stretch and enjoy it. Take a sip of wine and enjoy it. At the end of the day, cross a day off on the calendar. Count down to June 30, when things will probably be a lot better.

Don’t turn down what is available, if you can avoid it. And if none of that is available at all, there is no shame in getting some help.

I can relate, OP. I was supposed to go overseas to see my 80-year-old mother in the spring - and don't know when I'll be able to do that now. Praying that she remains healthy and waits this pandemic out so I can finally travel and hug her.

This thought keeps me going. That, and good books, and ice cream.

Hang in there, OP! You don't 'need' to feel happy and thankful during Covid; just keep putting one foot in front of the other.

Anonymous wrote:People are so terrible and this site continues to reaffirm that.

I understand, op. I love my family and my home. I have seen real tragedy in my life. But this is still awful, on so many levels, and those who don’t see that are the spoiled and privileged ones. Not you. Hang in there.

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Anonymous wrote:I’m fine. Family is fine.

But staring down 3-6-9 more months of this makes me want to cry or have a nervous breakdown. I hate everyone who is happy or thinks this is awesome. Even my husband seems to mind it way less.

I feel like Tom Hanks with the volleyball and the hash marks counting the days.

Big hugs. Don't listen to these people. They are gaslighting you. Your emotions are valid and reasonable. I don't like this either. i am using this time, however, to learn new skills.

Remember, most people don't give a crap about anyone but themselves. Don't be fooled by the act and the "we're all in this together" bs. This year has taken everyone's masks off - for real.

I feel the same way. I am not happy and honestly can’t even think of anything (that is feasible in COVID times) that would make me happy. I seem to have lost myself, despite my family being healthy, not having experienced any loss of income, etc etc. I am pretty sure I am depressed and need medication.

OP, I get it. You are not alone. I am in your shoes to the point where I don’t think I can go on much longer. There is a special place in hell for the entitled privileged sick jerks who routinely spew venom on DCUM trying to push people over the edge with hate. It is indicative of the entire DC area which in general is a horrific place to live.

Mental illness brought on by Covid restrictions is real and scary. There will be an epidemic of suicides around the holidays as people give up. And there will be privileged Aholes here on FCuM trying to push those people over the edge with hateful nasty comments.

My advice is to stay off DCUM, whenever I come here I feel worse. It is toxic. Get meds, find a true friend to commiserate with and know there are people like me who empathize and are hugging you from afar.