Anonymous wrote:OP here. Thank you to everyone for the encouraging words. For those who asked, I was prescribed lexapro.
I have avoided coming back to the thread because I didn't want bad financial news to further cloud my decision to get help. After thinking about it for the last couple of days and thinking about what is best for me and my family I have decided to start the rx and see if it helps.
I started this thread because I was pretty proud of myself for getting the courage up and discussing this with a doctor and getting help. I was raised in a family where the outlook for dealing with problems was along the lines of 'deal with it, everyone has problems.' Therapy was for people who had the luxury of time and money. Only as the years (decades) have passed have relatives started to acknowledge and openly discuss that anxiety and depression are prevalent in our family. While I don't think I will proactively tell people, I'm not ashamed and, in fact am proud of myself. To the pp who mentioned discussing it with their kids when they are older, I like this approach. I want them to know that it's ok to get help.
I would like to be a better version of me, for myself and my family. I hope this is the first step in the right direction.
Thx
This is great. I hate the stigma against mood disorders. No one would consider not filling a prescription for an asthma inhaler or insuling, and yet people feel ashamed of treating their chronic mood disorders. But getting treatment is a sign of health and strength, of doing what needs to be done to get better and be a happier and better person and parent and spouse and friend. Best of luck!
"My hunch is that the disease/defect model of depression, is unwittingly contributing to the ongoing stigma of depression. Through the lens of the disease model, the legions of the formerly depressed are a “broken” people who need lifelong assistance. I would like to see a more revolutionary public education approach, with campaigns that emphasize the unique strengths that are required to endure depression. Even if a person is helped by drugs or therapy, grappling with a severe depression requires enormous courage. In many ways, a person who has emerged from the grip of depression has just passed the most severe of trials in the human experience. If we acknowledge that surviving depression requires a special toughness, we will not see formerly depressed people as a broken legion, but as a resource who can teach us all something about overcoming adversity." Jonathan Rottenberg, Ph.D.