I truly don't mean any disrespect, but I feel as if this thread is a single person talking to herself. I consider myself to very much be in my own world, that many don't understand me on a deep level, all that stuff, but I don't get this at all (the in-head soundtrack? the talking to yourself? the no one knows me? the my kid doesn't feel like my kid?) I don't get it.

BTW--I'm drawn to people like me. I had/have a friend very much like this. It was actually a nice match.

Look at these:

http://strangerinthemirror.com/questionnaire.html

http://books.google.com/books?id=ONLyq-mVLuIC&pg=PA74&lpg=PA74&dq=cambridge+depersonalization+scale&source=bl&ots=n11hs0ku0v&sig=z-k3-z_7FiAziyB_usWPaS44VfQ&hl=en&sa=X&ei=OuYaUKWlF4Xt6gGr0IGYDw&ved=0CFgQ6AEwBA#v=onepage&q=cambridge%20depersonalization%20scale&f=false

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Anonymous wrote:I know what you are talking about....kinda. I feel like there is me and there is the "real me" inside of me that has no filter. I think things to myself that I would never tell another person...even my husband. Example...my in-laws have the ugliest feet I've ever seen. I keep that inside my head and laugh about it in my "alternate universe space." Someone can talk to me and I can have a whole conversation inside my head about it. I have great relationships with people and am well liked. I'm pretty normal I guess and no, I'm not on any sort of medication.

OP here, this exactly!. I constantly have conversations in my head but I don't feel crazy..or maybe I am.

OP, if you are hearing music, I think your situation is different from the standard inner monologue.

Sounds like a little bit of depersonalization disorder. I think btw they are deciding these dissociative disorders are not all trauma-related.

Anonymous wrote:

Anonymous wrote:I'm sort of like this...I can completely end a friendship (usually just by not responding) if its on my terms. If its not on my terms I become a bit obsessed about it.

ha! I am the same way. I never thought to connect the two- my obsessive daydreaming and my ability to just shrug and walk away from people. It has only recently dawned on me that I am a bit self-absorbed. Like I have to remind myself that people want me to ask how was your weekend etc. Otherwise, I;d be happy to keep singing songs in my head or having my imaginery dramas that keep me entertained/

Ha ha! This is me too!!!!

Anonymous wrote:I'm sort of like this...I can completely end a friendship (usually just by not responding) if its on my terms. If its not on my terms I become a bit obsessed about it.

ha! I am the same way. I never thought to connect the two- my obsessive daydreaming and my ability to just shrug and walk away from people. It has only recently dawned on me that I am a bit self-absorbed. Like I have to remind myself that people want me to ask how was your weekend etc. Otherwise, I;d be happy to keep singing songs in my head or having my imaginery dramas that keep me entertained/

Anonymous wrote:I'm sort of like this...I can completely end a friendship (usually just by not responding) if its on my terms. If its not on my terms I become a bit obsessed about it.

I'm a PP and this is me, too. I am also one of those people where if someone I know is mad about something, I automatically assume it's something I did. I have no idea why, but I have gotten so paranoid in the past over trying to imagine some slight I may have committed against someone because I can't convince myself it isn't my fault they're mad. (Which I understand is totally self-absorbed, but that seems to be the common theme on this thread. Whatever else we might have, we all seem to be ridiculously self-absorbed. I also identified with others who said it's hard for them to do nice or generous things for others. If it's my idea, I'm happy to do it. But if, say, my DH suggests us doing something nice for someone and it puts me out, I can be a total scrooge about it.)

Anonymous wrote:I wouldn't describe it exactly the same way, OP, but I certainly "live inside my head" a lot. I have entire conversations with people, real or imagined, and I play out scenarios of what I would do, places I'd go. I often feel that my life is what I've had to do, not what I really want to do and that no one truly knows the real me.

Maybe part of it is just my mid-life crisis Walter Mitty syndrome, but I've always had a very rich internal life since I was very young. My current "external" life - not rich at all.

This is me as well.

I'm sort of like this...I can completely end a friendship (usually just by not responding) if its on my terms. If its not on my terms I become a bit obsessed about it.

I live entirely inside my head. I think I may be a little crazy, but in the real world, I am together, have a decent job, a good husband and many friends, volunteer commitments and decent familial relationships. I feel like it is all a farce.

In my head right now, I've been carrying on a raging sexual relationship with a "bad guy" in my office for about 2 months. IRL, I am his boss, he is a tatted up ex-con. Very different from my lawyer DH.

In my head, I am also not the Junior Leaguer that I am IRL, I have a different job and a lot is different.

I will spend the majority of the day living in this world and floating through the real world. I don't think anyone suspects a thing.

Anonymous wrote:
This is interesting to me. I feel like I can justify doing some weird unsafe shit..as long as it doesn't directly hurt someone else that I can see. If not for my family, I can really see myself living carelessly and dangerously. I have friends, acquaintances, etc but I don't feel fully invested in anyone or anything. For example, I can break off a multi year friendship just like that and never be phased by it. I don't share my problems with or depend on anyone for emotional support so I don't feel like I need people.

Yes, I can do the same - very easily - and I often fail to recongnize it's not the same for other people and they can't do it. I don't get invested emtionally in very much. I churn through friends fairly quickly. I will be intense friends with someone for a few months, even years, and then one day just not speak to them or see them again and it doesn't phase me at all. I have come to realize that part of it stems from having ADD and that so many other thoughts, ideas and emotions are running through my head that there is just no room to concentrate on any one thing for too long.

Also, even if I'm not speaking out loud, I am speaking to myself in my head and sometimes my hand gestures are going even when my lips are not.

All the time!! And sometimes in public when I barely realize I'm doing it.

Do any of you talk to yourselves? I have many of the traits described above and feel I am my own best friend, but I talk to myself. I remember doing it from a very young age.
I have friends and family, but I also feel they don't know me.