Anonymous wrote:Anonymous wrote:Anonymous wrote:If they were that horrible, you would have known before you were over 50 years old.
NP. When you are young, you only know what you know. So if you live with broken people, that’s your normal. It takes many years and a lot of experience to establish new normals. By then, you’re not living with those broken people anymore, and you haven’t for a long time. Your life is yours now. Maybe you try not to look back too much. You don’t want to dwell. So you never really look too deep, and you believe that you’ve moved on.
And then your parents get old. And suddenly you can’t avoid it anymore, you can’t avoid them anymore, there’s so little time and also now your own kids are grown and aren’t the buffer that they were. And those old patterns from your childhood are still there, all those familiar interactions are still there, but YOU are different, and suddenly it’s like the scales have fallen from your eyes, and it’s like, “Ohhhhh. I really didn’t get what I needed.” And that’s when it all comes bubbling up.
Or I dunno, maybe that’s just me.
Are you better, though? You are different, sure.
Our kids will all have stuff to say about us and our less than perfect parenting too.
My parents are far from ideal — they are divorced so not really one entity — but I’m not perfect either.
My best friend’s mom is schizophrenic and is currently living under an overpass or something. My friend has good reason to hate her. Being boring, on the other hand, is just what old people are.
Anonymous wrote:Does anyone worry that this will happen to them when they are old? I try so hard to be a good parent and love my children so much. But what if one day, when they are grown up, they start to feel like I made mistakes, they are annoyed by me, my stories are boring etc etc etc
I fully understand and support cutting toxic people out and establishing boundaries but I, nonetheless, worry sometimes that, despite my best efforts, I’ll be the old person everyone is sick and tired of
Anonymous wrote:Anonymous wrote:Does anyone worry that this will happen to them when they are old? I try so hard to be a good parent and love my children so much. But what if one day, when they are grown up, they start to feel like I made mistakes, they are annoyed by me, my stories are boring etc etc etc
I fully understand and support cutting toxic people out and establishing boundaries but I, nonetheless, worry sometimes that, despite my best efforts, I’ll be the old person everyone is sick and tired of
Hear you!
Putting aside truly abusive parents (who of course are owed nothing but retribution), I am often taken aback by the lack of compassion many posters have for their parents.
I wonder if they will feel differently when they get old. It is a scary, challenging phase of life. All about loss.
I was raised to believe that families help each other and that love comes with responsibility to have the other’s back. It is startling that so many adult children just resent their parents for getting old and frail before they leave this earth.
Anonymous wrote:Anonymous wrote:If they were that horrible, you would have known before you were over 50 years old.
NP. When you are young, you only know what you know. So if you live with broken people, that’s your normal. It takes many years and a lot of experience to establish new normals. By then, you’re not living with those broken people anymore, and you haven’t for a long time. Your life is yours now. Maybe you try not to look back too much. You don’t want to dwell. So you never really look too deep, and you believe that you’ve moved on.
And then your parents get old. And suddenly you can’t avoid it anymore, you can’t avoid them anymore, there’s so little time and also now your own kids are grown and aren’t the buffer that they were. And those old patterns from your childhood are still there, all those familiar interactions are still there, but YOU are different, and suddenly it’s like the scales have fallen from your eyes, and it’s like, “Ohhhhh. I really didn’t get what I needed.” And that’s when it all comes bubbling up.
Or I dunno, maybe that’s just me.
Anonymous wrote:Anonymous wrote:If they were that horrible, you would have known before you were over 50 years old.
NP. When you are young, you only know what you know. So if you live with broken people, that’s your normal. It takes many years and a lot of experience to establish new normals. By then, you’re not living with those broken people anymore, and you haven’t for a long time. Your life is yours now. Maybe you try not to look back too much. You don’t want to dwell. So you never really look too deep, and you believe that you’ve moved on.
And then your parents get old. And suddenly you can’t avoid it anymore, you can’t avoid them anymore, there’s so little time and also now your own kids are grown and aren’t the buffer that they were. And those old patterns from your childhood are still there, all those familiar interactions are still there, but YOU are different, and suddenly it’s like the scales have fallen from your eyes, and it’s like, “Ohhhhh. I really didn’t get what I needed.” And that’s when it all comes bubbling up.
Or I dunno, maybe that’s just me.
Anonymous wrote:
Hear you!
Putting aside truly abusive parents (who of course are owed nothing but retribution), I am often taken aback by the lack of compassion many posters have for their parents.
I wonder if they will feel differently when they get old. It is a scary, challenging phase of life. All about loss.
I was raised to believe that families help each other and that love comes with responsibility to have the other’s back. It is startling that so many adult children just resent their parents for getting old and frail before they leave this earth.
Anonymous wrote:If they were that horrible, you would have known before you were over 50 years old.
Anonymous wrote:Does anyone worry that this will happen to them when they are old? I try so hard to be a good parent and love my children so much. But what if one day, when they are grown up, they start to feel like I made mistakes, they are annoyed by me, my stories are boring etc etc etc
I fully understand and support cutting toxic people out and establishing boundaries but I, nonetheless, worry sometimes that, despite my best efforts, I’ll be the old person everyone is sick and tired of
Anonymous wrote:Anonymous wrote:
Just imagine what your kids will say about you.
I'm not the OP, but can guarantee you her kids will not say what she has said. People who grow to see their abusive parents for what they are, are doing everything they can to raise their own kids differently. In fact oftentimes having your own kids and looking at these helpless creatures brings all the hurt feelings you felt as a child, but had long forgotten, to the foreground.
Anonymous wrote:So sick of reading crap like this by people who are suddenly finding out their parents are flawed people (just like they are).
Spare us the psychologizing.
Anonymous wrote:Anonymous wrote:So sick of reading crap like this by people who are suddenly finding out their parents are flawed people (just like they are).
Spare us the psychologizing.
Then don't read, go somewhere else. For some of us it's important to feel validated. Enough of this shaming and forcing women to hide their negative feelings. It's healthy. We feel anger, rage and disgust when we're wronged. Enough of sweeping stuff under the carpet.
Anonymous wrote:Anonymous wrote:Anonymous wrote:Anonymous wrote:So sick of reading crap like this by people who are suddenly finding out their parents are flawed people (just like they are).
Spare us the psychologizing.
Then don't read, go somewhere else. For some of us it's important to feel validated. Enough of this shaming and forcing women to hide their negative feelings. It's healthy. We feel anger, rage and disgust when we're wronged. Enough of sweeping stuff under the carpet.
+1,000,000
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Anonymous wrote:Anonymous wrote:Anonymous wrote:So sick of reading crap like this by people who are suddenly finding out their parents are flawed people (just like they are).
Spare us the psychologizing.
Then don't read, go somewhere else. For some of us it's important to feel validated. Enough of this shaming and forcing women to hide their negative feelings. It's healthy. We feel anger, rage and disgust when we're wronged. Enough of sweeping stuff under the carpet.
+1,000,000
Anonymous wrote:Does anyone worry that this will happen to them when they are old? I try so hard to be a good parent and love my children so much. But what if one day, when they are grown up, they start to feel like I made mistakes, they are annoyed by me, my stories are boring etc etc etc
I fully understand and support cutting toxic people out and establishing boundaries but I, nonetheless, worry sometimes that, despite my best efforts, I’ll be the old person everyone is sick and tired of