Anonymous wrote:If a person addicted to alcohol doesn't really commit to sobriety - REAL sobriety, not just "not drinking"- and doesn't address the root cause of alcoholism it is not going to work. Even if he's better for a while an alcoholic who doesn't actively work to learn different coping skills will usually revert back to alcohol when things get rough, like with a newborn or a job change, a death in the family, even something they find "stressful" like having family over- and then you can't rely on them to really be a partner because they're drunk. It's the endless cycle of broken promises and feeling like any moment things can teeter over the edge into disaster. They can often hold it together professionally more or less for years but ultimately the chickens come home to roost. I'm glad you're separating and taking space for yourself, and I would strongly recommend reading Codependent No More and attending Al-Anon.

Anonymous wrote:OP here. I’m not worried about any rights. I don’t care about the homes or money. I make a very small fraction of what he makes and I’d be fine just taking that same percentage from our accounts if that was eventually what went down. I wouldn’t want any part of the houses and would happily sign them over to him. I know it’s not that easy and I know that sounds short sighted.

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Anonymous wrote:Honey, I’m selfish and tired of dealing with you and the children and being a family. I’m leaving and want a divorce. You can contact my lawyer, here’s his number. And exit.

We know you are, PP, but that isn't the right think for OP to say, given that she doesn't have children and she said her DH is alcoholic and isn't getting help.

That makes it easier then. Honey, I’m selfish and tired of dealing with you despite our marriage vowels. I’m out of here. Lawyer’s number is on your 6 pack in the fridge. Peace out.

NP.

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Anonymous wrote:Honey, I’m selfish and tired of dealing with you and the children and being a family. I’m leaving and want a divorce. You can contact my lawyer, here’s his number. And exit.

We know you are, PP, but that isn't the right think for OP to say, given that she doesn't have children and she said her DH is alcoholic and isn't getting help.

That makes it easier then. Honey, I’m selfish and tired of dealing with you despite our marriage vowels. I’m out of here. Lawyer’s number is on your 6 pack in the fridge. Peace out.

Anonymous wrote:Good luck OP, you'll get through this and come out for the better. I did went to mention that you CAN download do this without getting enmeshed in cheesy recovery culture if you do choose. It's fine to not embrace that lifestyle.

Anonymous wrote:Op I’m really sorry that you are faced with this. I read your other thread when you first posted it and was pretty sure the issue was alcoholism. Sounds like you’ve tried very very hard to get him to address his disease. Unfortunately he continues to drink and to downplay the reality and gravity of his Illness. He has left you with no good choices here.

I know it’s hard to leave someone you love and who needs help. But this is not your child and frankly you can’t help.
.you’ve tried and he refuses . The reality is that things will not improve and will get far worse unless he has a deep and searing desire to address this addiction. And even if he does have the desire, statistics for success are not great. You also don’t have a lot of time to waste if you want to rebuild a life with someone else and have kids. I doubt you spouse will be really trustworthy and stable in sobriety in time. I would not have kids until someone had at least 2 plus years of sobriety and a ton of support, including a sober ish family (which he does it have based on your post). Many alcoholics sort of hold it together until they dont. The addiction gets stronger and the cascade of physical and mental damage from drinking reaches a point from which it is difficult to return. And you have no control over this. Which I get is very hard to accept. But you leaving or staying is not the reason he drinks or will drink and stopping drinking for you won’t last if he views it that way. Given his history of seizures I am sorry to say that the future for him should he continue this path is bleak: usually a combination of health issues . Psychological breakdown (all alcohol related), job loss, loss of home, etc. obviously this is not every alcoholic but it is not out of the realm
Of possibility given that you guys are only mid 30s

So as you separate please get yourself therapy and consider how a life without him will work. Make the right decision for you and you only support him if he chooses rehab but even that doesn’t not obligate you to stay with him. Personally from my experiences with alcoholism I would end the marriage given his unwillingness to try to get well. I would also not want to raise children in this environment nor have children with those genetics.

Anonymous wrote:OP here. Thanks everyone. We talked Sunday and I told him I needed some space, a separation, for 3 months. That I’m tired of beating my head against the wall. That I love him and support him and don’t want to be without him, but neither of us can continue on like this.
That if he doesn’t agree to stop drinking and get help, I can’t do this anymore. He’s digging his heels in and claiming to be fine, that I’m overreacting etc, but he’ll “give me time” if that’s what I need. I said this isn’t something that will go away - I’ll grow angry and resentful if things continue on like this, and neither of us want to live that way.
I said we both need time to calm down, think about things, work on ourselves, go to individual therapy, and maybe have some sort of come to Jesus epiphany.

It’s not likely this ends well, and I know 3 months isn’t going to magically fix anything, but it seemed like a decent medium between what I want (6 months apart) and what he wants (no time apart and to pretend everything’s fine).

We have a schedule for the next month of switching off between our two homes (and will update every few weeks according to who needs to be in the city for work/ appts etc). No, I have not purchased a car and most likely won’t right now. My sister has a car she doesn’t use that I can use or buy off her eventually. I know many suggested buying one right now, but unless things get extremely heated, I’m fine having the occasional run-in while we switch off.

I have my first individual therapy appt tomorrow, and we have couples therapy biweekly. I’m not sure if we should resume that or not.

I’ve started looking at apartments, I’ve spoken to a lawyer, I have all our financial info (including assets/ mortgages equity info) available. I’m not pulling the trigger on anything until this three months has lapsed and I can see if there’s any shred of possibility he’s done a 180.

To a recent PP that discussed age/ babies: I was fine being on the fence when we were ‘happy’, but now that this has all gone down, it’s forced me to think about it even more, and yea, I’m realizing I *do* want that. It’s something I need to think about more on my own and maybe with the therapist - am I wanting kids now, because I may be losing someone I love? Why was I ok being on the fence when I was happy in my relationship, but I’m not ok being on the fence now? I know a baby isn’t a solution to unhappiness, so I’m not sure what’s going on there.

Thanks all for your advice. I know I’m not doing this exactly how others would, so I know I’ll get some “constructive” feedback and that’s fine. It just sucks. There’s no easy way or right way.