Anonymous wrote:^^Thanks for reviving this thread PP!
My AF/sobriety decision has been on my mind today. I am at day 279 - 9 months, 9 days. That's the longest I have gone without alcohol since my pregnancies. And even when I was pregnant I had a little alcohol - like a toast at a wedding, a few sips of wine at the very end. Kind of sad to think about now. And even though I wasn't drinking regularly while pregnant I was hugely defensive about it. Just a really different, and messed up, mindset.
But what has me thinking about my decision and how to maintain my sobriety is that I have a "milestone" coming up - first visit with a longtime friend who was also a major wine drinking buddy of mine. I actually think she drinks too much as well, and I think she sort of knows it. She's made a few comments that make me think that. Anyway, last month I was thinking I might consider drinking a little wine with her, telling myself that I believe I now have it under control enough to stop and start at will. But the more I thought about that the more dread I felt. Being AF has been really liberating in a way I didn't anticipate. I really can't describe how amazing it feels to not order a drink at dinner and just know that I am not going to have to worry about drinking too much, or that I won't be able to stop, and that I'll undo everything I have done. Like, I get a real sense of joy every time I have that realization.
So this past week I decided that I am going to get some AF wine and AF mocktail ingredients and stick with being alcohol free. I feel really good about that decision. It was also a really weird realization that as much as I value this friendship I am not willing to sacrifice my sobriety to re-create the experiences we had previously. I hope it goes all right.
Happy Sunday to all!
Happy Sunday, thanks for sharing! Here I am on Sunday about to go relax with my book. Last year I would have been having 2 big glasses of wine because it's Sunday. The Sunday blues are not as bad without a lot of drinking the night before and here I am having enjoyed the full day! I'm so happy you are feeling good about your choice.