OP - I am so very sorry for your loss. i have also thought of you often. Much love and support.

Sending prayers your way and hoping you will find peace.

So sorry for your loss OP, but thank you for coming back.

Peace to you and your family.

Anonymous wrote:I'm so very sorry for your loss, OP. You've inspired a lot of us to take more time to be grateful for what we have and spend precious time with our kids. Much love to you this holiday season.

+1000 Have thought of you often, OP.

Many, many thoughts for you and your family, OP. I hope you can find peace and strength this holiday season.

Peace be with you OP

This just breaks my heart. OP, I am so sorry for your loss. Words can't express my sorrow for you. May peace be with you and that you find some comfort in knowing that your daughter is pain free, in a beautiful place and with you always, in your heart and in your mind.

What scare me most about this post is the realization that tragedy, illness, etc can happen at any time, you never know. They are OK today but you do not know what tomorrow, next year, 10 years from now brings. Live for today.

Yes, please hug your child today.

I'm so very sorry for your loss, OP. You've inspired a lot of us to take more time to be grateful for what we have and spend precious time with our kids. Much love to you this holiday season.

OP, I'm the PP who bumped this up on 12/5/13, and I'm so glad you're here. Not to sound stalker-ish, but I think about you and your daughter all the time. My kids are 4 and 2 so you can imagine it's a little crazy in our house sometimes, but remembering how you talked about your daughter reminds me to take a step back and make sure I count my many blessings every day, and I do. It also reminds me to sit still and just enjoy my time with my kids, especially when they want me to draw a picture of a dog for the 45th time in the last 10 minutes and I REALLY REALLY REALLY need to get dinner started. Dinner can wait.

Holding you and your family in my heart this Christmas and always.

I will light candles this Christmas in honor of your daughter, OP. I am very sorry for your loss. May peace be upon you and your family. You are a beautiful mother, as it comes through your writing. You will always be a mother. Always. You are not alone, and please surround yourself with those who love you, as well as those who loved DS the most. Seek therapy, and/or spiritual guidance. When my father died of cancer, I was told the grieving process would take time. It did, and everyone grieves differently. I cannot even begin to comprehend the loss of a child (and I wouldn't dare even try to compare) but what I can say is I knew I was starting to come to peace with the massive loss when I started to have vivid dreams of the *good* years, instead of the time spent in the hospital. Celebrate the good times, the laughter, and joyful memories.

Oh OP, thank you for updating. It just made me cry. I have thought of you often and taken very serious your title - "hug your child today" - I think of your thread as a gift to me and so many of the other mothers who have read it... Peace to you and your family.

OP, I am so sorry for your loss. Hugs and hugs.

This thread helped me get that the struggle to be a good parent boils down to one thing: be sure they know they are loved.

Anonymous wrote:Thank you so much for the update OP. Like many I often think of you and come back to this thread, and will certainly have your family in my heart this holiday season. May there be peace for you and yours.

+1 peace to you, OP.

OP, thank you for the update. I am so sorry for your loss, and I wish you and your family continued peace and healing.