Every time I see this thread, I check in to see if OP has come back, hoping she can see the incredible outpouring of love, sympathy, and unqualified support offered in this thread. This represents the absolute best of DCUM, and besides giving a loving boost to OP, it also lightens my mood every time I see you wonderful people offering up your hearts and souls to the OP.
OP, may you be at peace during this time, and hopefully you are still able to hold your daughter in your arms tonight. I'll be thinking of you.