Anonymous wrote:I have experienced serious betrayal from him and try to force myself to feel love for him but mostly feel numb. Everynight, I go straight to bed after tucking our kids in and force myself to go to sleep to avoid talking to him. As early as 8:30pm.
We are rarely intimate.
He doesn’t seem to miss me nor care.
One day, I will leave this hell.
It won't change if he cheated on you. I know there are some women that can forgive, but it will never be the same. It's not worth having sex with a cheater and messing up your health. Also, it sounds like he is seeing someone. I would find out, but either way make a plan to leave him. At least go see a lawyer, or find out what you would have to do to put yourself in a good position.